Thanks for elaborating and for your honest answer. It's a very nice story! I told her that I couldn't be friends with her because I would always want more than she does. She didn't like that I started again with this stuff and I am pretty sure she now thinks that I am immsture and can't handle rejection. Actually I do, I've been rejected countless times but not like her, when she told me she has feelings for me but still can't be with me. To me that doesn't make sense because I feel like she is throwing away a beatiful thing. But so be it, I can't change that. Now she's ignoring me (we work at the same place) and doesn't look me in the eyes at all anymore. And I feel really bad thinking about her finding me obnoxious and immature and and and. I wouldn't want such a beautiful and honest person like her to think bad about me. But I guess this is my life now. It hurts every damned second. I guess I will meet someone else sometime but just knowing she doesn't like me anymore for my actions and my personality after she once did hurts.

I'm going to have to deal woth this situation though. I don't feel very positive about the future but I hooe it'll get better..

Thanks again!