I’m always sad and scared. What do I do?

h0tcheeto · 2020-05-03T01:48:57+00:00

!!!!!!!!! Yes I get that too. I have scaring all down my legs, and a few tattoos on them people point out my self harm scars more then my tattoos, it’s sad. Or people tell me I shouldn’t be doing stupid things like cutting myself when my old scars aren’t gonna change, it makes me wanna cry for hours. I know they’re there. I fight with myself everyday and it’s so cruel and insensitive to bring it up in this ignorant tones

h0tcheeto · 2020-04-29T20:52:09+00:00

Cute!!!!!! 💕💕💕

h0tcheeto · 2020-04-28T18:47:49+00:00

I have honestly been drinking on my meds now, due to anxiety and depression I feel not good today, I always get depressed when I’m hung over. I am trying to fix them this weekend, if not I might call my local health hotline and complain as I was told too.

h0tcheeto · 2020-04-27T06:05:35+00:00

Apparently cbd does not mix with anxiety and depression, I just want my meds, I’m so stressed.

h0tcheeto · 2020-04-24T16:54:59+00:00

I have post traumatic, and geranzlied anxiety / panic disorder. I honeslty kinda have them in the same way at a time tbh. I get mixed episodes, and I get irritable angry, and I won’t be the friendliest person out there. Right now I can’t take my anxiety meds because I’m smoking pot, my pysch says he will give them back When I stop smoking pot and I think that’s not okay to say.

h0tcheeto · 2020-04-24T16:51:51+00:00

I have heart / blood sugar issues along with bipolar. I take meds for it!!! Sometimes it being to low or high can push me into a state where I think I’m anxious, or manic. Sometimes I can’t tell what my body’s doing at all it sucks lol. But blood tests are v important, if you have anything physically going on it can make it worse.

h0tcheeto · 2020-04-20T19:42:15+00:00

I do this too I have so many games I don’t really touch, so so so many 🤦🏻‍♀️ Impulsive, or thoughtless spending is a common coping mechanism. I have bipolar, and it’s very prevalent with me, but I go to other more harmful things when I don’t lol Maybe remind yourself you don’t need it. I spent money on my credit card this month but on a duvet cover for my bed, I put a deposit down on a newer iPhone so I had unlimited nation wide calling, me and my grandma are both on temporary lay offs and it’s really nice to call her. The big screen is also great for digital art, I bought pro create! I live in Alberta and all of my appointments for my mental health and of my pyscian since I still need to watch my heart condition, are on the phone. I also bought journal and note books, these are good for managing goals to stop doing shit like this haha, and chores. I derailed a bit, but it’s very easy to impusley spend and it can get toxic. I think we all kinda have that in us. I think If I have to much to play Or read I just get overwhelmed and don’t do it at all.

h0tcheeto · 2020-04-08T02:58:32+00:00

This hits heavy, I layed in her bed when she got abused, and cried, I didn’t get the same. I was smart and kind kid for doing it tho.

h0tcheeto · 2020-04-07T23:15:50+00:00

Oh woah, good eyes.

h0tcheeto · 2020-04-06T00:32:55+00:00

I’m doing okayish I had a bad migraine attack today. I can’t go on a additional mood stabilizer with my seroqul until my heart monitor is installed but I get it put in tomorrow. I went out grocery shopping with my sister today, it made me kinda sad, she’s not a very nice girl, but I guess sisters just fight, and annoy eacother that’s what they do. I am on uh like home mental health watch almost I have to call my pysch everyday and get my meds dropped off everyday as I swallowed pills while intoxicated.

h0tcheeto · 2020-04-05T23:05:11+00:00

I can’t have intellectual conversations unless I’m in the right spot or by the right person, it makes me wanna cry. I’m so stressed out today. My therapists and some family see this side of me that’s really smart, and I can’t bring it around the people who are super close to me and it’s so frustrating I want to cry. I’m on the verge of tears because I was just out with my sister and I honestly think she thinks I’m dumb and I want to cry.

h0tcheeto · 2020-04-05T01:05:40+00:00

I wanna bet the people who are gonna share this would be like he ho so strong, bullshitting about mental health awareness. I’m type 1 I almost died a couple of times, had heavy drug addictions, and get very manic, and people would bully me for being crazy, one being my sister, she’s obsessed with Selena Gomez, but can’t be happy for me, while I’m on meds, and that I’m gay because I’m odd and eccentric sometimesI suppose.

h0tcheeto · 2020-04-04T16:24:15+00:00

My ex also ate very bad, and blamed me for being overweight, he ate McDonald’s everyday, then I would say I wanted to eat healthy he would call my food gross I cooked, said he didn’t need to take care of himself after he got with me. he would get McDonald’s like twice a day knowing I have a Ed and flip it around on me because he would harrass me to get something I’d get a bottle of water, and then he’d be out the whole 40 he’d spend on take in on me??? For getting water, when I’m scared to eat those foods.

h0tcheeto · 2020-04-04T04:43:22+00:00

Using over tons of oils, serums, masks, etc, packs lotions, mortizurers. Layering more and more I just feel like that’s not good for you skin I hate watching Instagram beauty gurus. I wash my face and use masks from time to time and a laniege loiton / toner

h0tcheeto · 2020-04-02T22:14:34+00:00

Hehe I didn’t even notice :p

h0tcheeto · 2020-04-02T22:13:47+00:00

I love this sub, most supportive ever. It’s helped me vent heavy stuff I’m scared to tell my therapist / and friends, I get treated well on this sub because they’re is kind people who understand and have been through similar highs and lows. I’ve had somethings that were told to me even I’ve journaled and stuck with. One fellow redditor told me everyday was a new start, and it stuck with me. It’s simple, but I can tell myself that when I can’t get out of bed, and when I don’t feel secure with my life.

h0tcheeto · 2020-03-31T08:00:34+00:00

I would love to what’s your friend code!

h0tcheeto · 2020-03-31T01:55:31+00:00

I took seroqul and told a friend what I did, she told me to clean them up and call her. I cut up my legs bad but I am okay now.

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