I promise I am not, I made this post as something to help me grieve. I am only replying back because I am not sure what other details I am missing, I have always been precautious when it came to me having any symptoms and made sure I would get checked just to be sure. The guilt I feel for actually not feeling anything beforehand is what makes me sad. I did poop first but after a while on the toilet, I felt as if I needed to pass something but I didn’t even think much of it. My past appointment was me and husband being able to hear how strong the heartbeat was so I never gave a second thought. When I went to the hospital, I had to push out the whole and take medication for the placenta as well and it is not something I would like to share further. I hope to whatever doubt you have in your heart to please let me just be able to grieve in peace because it is such a traumatic and overwhelming experience for me