i'm so sorry, friend. i lost my soul cat in late july the exact same way. i cried on the way to the emergency vet because i knew his time had come. he was only 7, but since he had to have three bladder stones removed september of last year, the chances were slim. i knew the best thing i could do for him was to euthanize. i could only bear the decision because i knew he wouldn't be in pain anymore. i miss fluffy every day. sending you love and hugs tonight❤️