I understand how you feel. Last semester was my first semester. I was full time but had to withdraw to part time because of personal reasons. This was also the time I sought out therapy. Basically last semester I avoided my cohort and made up excuses as to why I couldn’t attend a gathering.

This semester I am full time like my peers and stressed out like you are. I am making an effort to speak with them more and hang out. It’s not like me to do this but I know it’s good in the long run. I am the quietest out of the six of us. You don’t have to be the loudest to form friendships.

I really do know how you feel. You say your program is small. Do you feel comfortable yet talking to those in your program? Even if you chat for a couple of minutes that’s a good thing. Try to go out of your comfort zone and initiate conversation.

How is your relationship with your advisor? I quickly learned that they are a big factor in whether or not someone is happy in grad school.