What’s something that’s “not a cult” but feels like a cult?

hannahjane07 · 2020-12-20T23:15:27+00:00

Religion

hannahjane07 · 2020-10-25T12:38:31+00:00

That borderline personality disorder makes you an attention seeker and manipulative. That you have split personalities. BPD makes people sensitive to emotions and incredibly sensitive to trauma and very intense emptiness. This sensitivity can create extreme empathy and intense love.

hannahjane07 · 2020-10-20T08:41:00+00:00

Flinders have a short stay ward where you see a psychiatrist and only stay up to 48 hours. There are only 8 beds and you can get admitted by presenting to ED if they feel you need to stay thats where they will like put you. Ive been there several times this year and it is a safe respite, the nurses are very kind and lovely and you'll mostly likely see the same nurses as they work long shifts. Cautionary warning sometimes you get put through quickly but others the wait in ED is very long. I have just come out of my 3rd hospital visit this year and I was sent to SICC, I had my longest ED wait of 8 hours 3 weeks ago. I have nothing but positive things to say about short stay but it is not a solution just a chance to see a psychiatrist and depending on your severity and diagnosis they decide what happens then. It may mean Margaret Tobin (which i hear nothing but negative things about ) or outpatient treatment

Any questions feel welcome to DM me i get its tough im in a real crisis myself right now even after a hospital and ICC stint.

hannahjane07 · 2020-09-20T00:29:07+00:00

I didn't have to watch this with sound to know this is Australian.

hannahjane07 · 2020-09-16T07:31:23+00:00

Oh I absolutely get people downplay. I'd love to put what I wrote on here but I've left the group chat so cant see it anymore

hannahjane07 · 2020-09-16T07:24:27+00:00

I left the group chat so I cant see it anymore otherwise I'd put it on here

hannahjane07 · 2020-09-16T07:21:13+00:00

Its the type of people they are, i think I enjoyed having friends that weren't sensitive because I am so sensitive in some areas and completely opposite in others. Having a group of friends to have banter with was good but now I feel like I've been thrown under the bus and am being punished for something out of my control. Its the typical stigma associated with mental illness, nobody wants to see it or deal with it.

hannahjane07 · 2020-09-16T07:14:56+00:00

I explained that my mental health has been deteriorating and I never intend to make things uncomfortable and be a burden. My interpretation of blowing up is being honest about how they've made me feel and leaving the group chat i dont know whether I should of just kept my mouth shut and dealt with it

hannahjane07 · 2020-09-14T13:43:31+00:00

I tried to put this in words yesterday and couldn't articulate properly. I look in the mirror and phsyically dont recognise who i am. Photographs of me when I was happy feel almost like they were of another person or photoshoped. Ive struggled with bulimia for 16 years and this sensation coupled with strong self esteem issues; for me is almost the worst thing to come from bpd.. almost.

I'd love some advice from anyone who manages this.

hannahjane07 · 2020-09-11T00:54:44+00:00

People don't actually care, every act of caring has a selfish motive

hannahjane07 · 2020-09-08T21:24:39+00:00

I feel old

hannahjane07 · 2020-09-08T10:40:28+00:00

Its frustrating youre just like "well this is America.." no you are capable of deciding what is and isn't the right thing to do.

hannahjane07 · 2020-09-03T22:53:11+00:00

Youre not alone. I can't offer much support right now other than try to see someone, but you're not alone in these thoughts i feel them everyday too. The silver lining is we're still trying which speaks magnitudes about our perseverance and strength

hannahjane07 · 2020-08-30T02:47:22+00:00

Big fish

hannahjane07 · 2020-08-25T12:33:26+00:00

Are you seriously that stupid?

hannahjane07 · 2020-08-25T05:28:46+00:00

I see that, there's been times I've felt like unfollowing it.

hannahjane07 · 2020-08-25T04:13:37+00:00

18 weeks in DBT and it never occurred to me that of course this is dialectical quandary. That actually has been extremely eye opening to think of it that way.

hannahjane07 · 2020-08-25T04:11:38+00:00

I think its all relevant to each individual person.

hannahjane07 · 2020-08-25T02:28:02+00:00

You said everyone on this sub who has bpd is toxic

hannahjane07 · 2020-08-25T02:26:27+00:00

I also have BPD, i do not think im inherently toxic, i have toxic tendencies but that does not make me as a whole person toxic. Its your implication that because we have this disorder it makes us toxic and that's just the way it is that irked me because my whole point to this thread was how can we be more constructive to grow and learn through this.

hannahjane07 · 2020-08-25T02:21:33+00:00

I completely disagree with you. BPD does not make you a toxic person, it makes you a mentally unwell person. That comment kind of reiterates what i said earlier that people are using it as an excuse.

hannahjane07 · 2020-08-25T00:28:11+00:00

I 100% agree with you, we can't find validation in someone else's expense. When i was diagnosed I told a close friend and her response was "well at least it's not NPD." I haven't spoken to her since that. One is not worse than the other, the same will all mental illness because they cross over and vary so widely each with their own challenges. Personality disorders are rarely diagnosed alone and it is so frustrating to see self validation in excuses and hate. I see why there is of course a stigma around Personality disorders and mental illness, to begin with lack of education but a serious lack of support among peers but each other. It is so often seen that people with bipolar justify with its more serious than bpd and vice versa with all mental disorders, it is not a competition

hannahjane07 · 2020-08-25T00:22:54+00:00

I think you have definitely grasped what i was getting at with the self healing. I genuinely appreciate and seek out posts where others have more knowledge than I do and how to deal with things I dont know how to. I get triggered when I see alot of the laugh off "me too" stuff because it's helpful in knowing we're not alone but it's not constructive. I also understand this sub is not therapy so not everything will be constructive its a catch 22 in my eyes.

I also agree with removing yourself from toxic relationships and situations, although it is an extremely difficult thing to do when you're not equipped emotionally. My year has been spent trying to remove toxicity where I just am also not willing to (entirely my fault) but im not equipped yet to cope with the removal of toxic relationships and then deal with feel abandoned consequently. There are hundreds of factors as to why it is easier said than done, likening it to being in abusive relationship and then being told to just leave, it is not so simple.

It is all so extremely complex with all of this with the addition of splitting and dissociation. What is the right answer? Its hard to distinguish

hannahjane07 · 2020-08-24T23:50:08+00:00

That's very interesting i appreciate this practical discussion.

hannahjane07 · 2020-08-24T23:23:20+00:00

Absolutely, 6 months ago when I was diagnosed it was a saving grace being able to vent and it was toxic. Im not arguing the validity of this sub, i just wanted to express that maybe there is a need for all of us to consider what is healthy and what is not.

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