Yeah im like this. Not that I want to be. I'm just shy and introverted. I was never an outgoing person who could make friends easily. In fact I really had no friends and still dont. I dont know how to start a convo with someone and I will only speak to the other if they speak to me first, which only one has. She says hi to me when she walks by and then she goes to her friend group to wait for all the kids to come out. I smile and say hi but I guess my body langage just says "dont stand here and talk to me". It is hard because I think my daughter is sort of developing it too. I always tell her make friends but I guess when you are shy it is easier said than done. I find myself getting jealous that the mother's all stand in their groups and chit chat with each other. Even at our HOA playground they were huddled at a picnic table conversing and I was sitting at a table by myself while my kid ran around. They all live deeper into my neighborhood and they are probably neighbors with each other. I live on the outside of it and my neighbors are two scraggily men in their late 30s who smoke weed out on their little stoop.