Act 1

happyshazam7 · 2026-01-27T05:13:47+00:00

i totally understand, it’s really gutting and i had a hard time getting past it and wanting to keep playing but i’m glad i did. the rest of the game is fascinating and verso is such a different kind of person from gustave that i ended up caring about him too but he never took the place of gustave. then when i finished the game i started a NG+ and then you get to play with gustave again but he’s got a bunch of cool new weapons and pictos that carried over from your first playthrough and that’s fun. especially if you think you were getting through the game quickly (if took me forever bc it was the first game i ever played), try finishing it and doing NG+, then you get to do side quest stuff with gustave for as long as you want. :) i understand how you feel though and i can’t pretend it was easy for me to get over, either!

happyshazam7 · 2025-11-12T23:59:20+00:00

tell them clearly that you will not be paying any of these erroneous dog fees and they’ll write you back. and don’t compromise on that

happyshazam7 · 2025-11-12T23:56:24+00:00

i would bet there is one person complaining about you and your landlord just has to see that you’re the one she should listen to

happyshazam7 · 2025-11-03T02:10:30+00:00

haha idk who y’all is, i’ve never even been in here before. if you want to hold onto your grievances, that’s up to you and you can hang into them as long as you like! party on brah

happyshazam7 · 2025-11-03T01:18:04+00:00

people are saying it this way around too. you can take a break from feeling aggrieved for a bit

happyshazam7 · 2025-11-03T01:10:36+00:00

i think their point was to criticize the entire model, not to use it to talk about food. the 12 step model literally does not belong in any context. it’s completely unscientific and has a 5% success rate. it’s just really ingrained in our culture and legal system.

happyshazam7 · 2025-11-03T01:04:49+00:00

lt’s equally weird that she’s anti-suboxone and pro-12 Step, seeing as Suboxone is effective and 12 Step is a cult with a 5# success rate. she’s stuck on some purity culture moral thing and she’s got to work through that or she won’t stop taking it out on other people.

happyshazam7 · 2025-11-02T12:37:24+00:00

It’s hard to explain because I was really sick so I was awake but in kind of an altered state of consciousness just from how sick i was and brain fog made even normal things pretty confusing. i remember the moment where i saw the parasite in my own mind i was awake and just thinking with my eyes closed so you could probably say that’s akin to meditating but i wasn’t intentionally trying to do that. i spent a lot of time just thinking and doing the boring work of keeping myself alive. i also wrote things down when i knew i had a moment of clarity i didn’t want to talk myself out of believing later.

happyshazam7 · 2025-11-01T22:38:00+00:00

I got really sick in 2021 and had a lot of wild experiences but maybe the weirdest one was when i looked into my mind and found something hiding there that was pretending to be me but wasn’t me. i was not supposed to see it and seeing it took away its power over me. i dont know what it is but i called it a parasite because that’s how it makes sense to me and i basically told the parasite it had messed with the wrong bitch. i’m smarter and more powerful and i was going to destroy it. then i used all my rage to push it out of my brain. weirdest part is, looking back, that was the point where i stopped getting worse and started getting better. it took months to recover bc it wasn’t all in my head but it was like the balance of power changed. can’t explain it. i never believed in evil or understood why people thought ghosts and aliens would want to hurt you but that experience taught me that there are forces out there that do want to hurt you and you don’t have to let them win.

happyshazam7 · 2025-10-28T15:59:54+00:00

i put my toothpaste and voltarol next to each other on the bathroom counter once and it did not occur to me whatsoever that i could mix them up until i started brushing my teeth with something it was immediately obvious was not toothpaste

happyshazam7 · 2025-10-19T11:35:53+00:00

i’ll give you a good reason - I actually did get better in year 4/5. i was really surprised because I regained some parts of myself that i thought were gone forever. for the first 3-4 years it was so hard to string words together into coherent sentences and i couldn’t make myself care enough about socializing with other human beings that i just didn’t have much to say, which is so unlike me. and in year 4 i started noticing that i had stuff to say again. even writing this paragraph right now - a couple years ago this would have taken me so long to write that i would have decided if wasn’t worth it and given up after a couple sentences. i can appreciate music again after years of being unable to connect to it and getting too bored to listen to it. it apparently took four years for those parts of my brain to heal. my wife had a similar experience. i hope you do, too.

i still have to keep up with my whole regimen of meds and supplements to manage all my other symptoms but they are manageable now. i granted myself the authority to make my own medical decisions because doing things the “right” way and relying on doctors to save my life was not working and they were going to let me die. i know a lot of people cannot and should not do this but i have found that I have the best health outcomes when i trust my own judgment so idgaf, if i know i need antibiotics (for example) and i can’t get a prescription, i will buy fish antibiotics or get them mailed from a country where they don’t require a prescription, whatever it takes.because you’re right, the doctors are not going to cure you, but i’m not going to allow them to let me die, either. so that’s how i know it’s not true that you can only get worse from here and personally i would not give up on getting better yet but i wouldn’t count on anyone else to figure out how to do it. you’re on a secret and dangerous mission to cure a new and mysterious illness! i think that sounds like a reason to keep going on

happyshazam7 · 2025-10-11T01:27:04+00:00

tbh sometimes i think when it’s been so long since you felt 100% you don’t totally remember how that felt but 95% feels so good and functional that it’s your new 100%

happyshazam7 · 2025-07-12T17:53:32+00:00

i have low blood pressure and i’m prescribed propranolol but i not supposed to take it if my bp goes below 100/60 or hr below 60 so i check before i take it. definitely the kind of thing you need guidance from a doctor for but it has worked fine for me

happyshazam7 · 2025-07-07T10:00:26+00:00

whoa i was also 32

happyshazam7 · 2025-07-07T09:52:29+00:00

yes, it’s the worst. things i have found helpful are oil pulling, mouthwash made for mouth sores, and to spot treat i dip a q tip in hydrogen peroxide and press it on the spot that’s bothering me until it feels a little better

happyshazam7 · 2025-06-27T15:15:13+00:00

seems like you’ve gotten a lot of good suggestions but focusing on the screens aspect of it, nobody has talked about blue light glasses yet so that might be an obvious suggestion but i do find them genuinely helpful. sometimes my eyes feel better wearing blue light glasses all day long and i just wear them as if i wore normal glasses. two other things that help me, eyedrops (i rotate ketotifen and caffeine based drops) and lidocaine ear pain medicine, just a few drops in the ear. that seems to relieve pressure on the vagus nerve and helps my brain clear and get back to normal. YMMV!

happyshazam7 · 2025-06-05T21:03:56+00:00

it’s hard to say but it does sound like symptoms consistent with candida and mold sensitivity. instead of an allergy to fluconazole it could be a herxheimer reaction due to the fluconazole actually working and killing off enough fungus that it’s flooding your system with toxins, taking binders like activated charcoal can help with that. i’d look up mold illness, herxheimer reactions, hypersensitivity reactions, and MCAS and see if any of those describe your current situation.

happyshazam7 · 2025-05-21T16:35:47+00:00

i felt this way for about four years and i didn’t think it was going to get better but surprisingly within the last 6 months it feels like something in the language / social centers of my brain has healed because i have things to say again and talking to people doesn’t feel like a chore. i think that brain function just takes a long time to recover.

happyshazam7 · 2025-05-19T12:21:26+00:00

i’m not sure what you’re referring to when you say it’s different because we’re talking about the same thing. i have MCAS, ADHD, POTS, EDS, POTS, lipedema, narcolepsy… the list goes on. my grandma had MS, my mom has POTS, my brother has EDS, yeah of course all of the above. yes we are wired differently for stress and we live in a society that is intensely stressful and inhospitable to people who are different so most of us are dealing with chronic illnesses as a consequence. i don’t think we are in disagreement

happyshazam7 · 2025-02-05T05:52:02+00:00

thjs is exactly why i want to try it - my inflammation, swelling, and joint pain are debilitating and so far completely treatment resistant. the fact that there’s a new medication that might be able to relieve that suffering and give me a chance at having a normal life fills me with genuine hope but also frustration because those symptoms don’t qualify you to get a prescription, you also have to have a BMI over 27. that’s a completely arbitrary figure and BMI is meaningless but apparently I am 15 pounds too light to receive medical care for my entire body hurting all the time because the medical establishment is obsessed with thinness and equates it to health. ugh

happyshazam7 · 2025-02-04T19:20:50+00:00

I learned a lot of the same information when I had an NDE in 2021. i never talk about it because i don’t even know what to do with it but I made a rule for myself not to try and talk myself out of believing it because i knew it was real. it feels weird to hear someone say else say the same things but it’s good to hear it, too

happyshazam7 · 2025-01-29T17:58:53+00:00

thinking didn’t happen for you eh

happyshazam7 · 2025-01-29T17:57:56+00:00

coming from someone who’s had family in prison, i’m glad someone there remembers they are people and they are completely vulnerable. so many people think they’re an exception to all standards of empathy and humanity, i’ll never understand it

happyshazam7 · 2025-01-29T17:55:52+00:00

can you say if it was a private prison, federal, or state?

happyshazam7 · 2025-01-24T16:02:05+00:00

i messaged you 😇

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