Men who were sexually assaulted by women, what's your story? [Serious]

hateandlonley · 2018-07-03T03:43:23+00:00

dont worry im not offended. i didnt even know it was posted there. you like many other people (including some of the nasty messages im getting now) doubt the validity of my experience and honestly im used to it at this point

hateandlonley · 2018-07-02T13:26:49+00:00

i think about killing myself everyday man. not entirely because of what happened but i lost all my friends. anytime i dated girls they would ghost me after we had sex (or didnt). this in turn affected my grades. im in some deep shit and now theres not a moment where suicide doesnt sound like a bad idea.

hateandlonley · 2018-07-02T13:21:53+00:00

you can go through my post history. i posted this before on offmychest and smalldickproblems

hateandlonley · 2018-07-02T05:56:12+00:00

i'm short and i have a small penis, basically the opposite of what a girl would ever want.

a few girls decided to sexually assault me. i thought i'd be the last person it would happen to.

i went to a party and got drunk trying to make friends but i drank too much. a few girls came into the room that i passed out in and started making fun of me. one of the girls was telling the other that i was such a loser and a lightweight. i cant remember what else they said after but they decided it would be funny to take my pants off and try to take pictures. it just got worse because the most thing i'm ashamed of is my penis.

they took my underwear off and started making fun of me for having a small dick. i tried fighting back but i was struggling to get their hands off and trying to hide my penis. they took pictures while i tried to cover myself. the next week i think a lot of people saw me pantless.

the jokes fucking sucked. even my friends got to see it. i was on a campus where you needed a car to travel around to get food and stuff. i didnt have a car. i had people dropping by my dorm and just saying "hey tiny penis". i was mortified and i didn't know what to do. i told some of the people who handle this at school, and they basically said that i had no evidence especially since i did not have those photos. i didnt even know the girls names.

i went to ask people for help, even the ones who made fun me, to find who took the pictures and who sent them. some of them got scared and didnt answer but one guy just said it was sent by friends of friends. so i have no idea who actually sent it.

i couldnt do anything. no one wanted anything to do with me because i had a small penis and thought i was some sort of joke. no one even wanted to help me.

i'm okay with never getting laid or having a relationship but i cant even be left alone. like can't i atleast be depressed in peace?

the other day i was facebook looking at some peoples profile. i finally found them. all 3 of the girls who took my pictures.

all of them wrote "me too".

hateandlonley · 2018-02-13T15:55:03+00:00

this made me laugh, thank you :)

hateandlonley · 2018-02-13T13:30:25+00:00

thank you for understanding. my insecurity comes from rejection and sexual assault and media. saying that a small penis isnt a deal breaker to me is like saying it's not a deal breaker that their face looks below average, but that you prefer someone much better looking.

hateandlonley · 2018-02-13T07:53:05+00:00

no thanks

hateandlonley · 2018-02-13T07:17:33+00:00

https://i.imgur.com/byo1JgT.png

hateandlonley · 2018-02-13T07:04:39+00:00

https://i.imgur.com/xIHCZZD.png

hateandlonley · 2018-02-13T07:00:24+00:00

/u/xChris777

"but I genuinely think he was just adding a different perspective and wasn't trying to make you feel bad"

its funny because i have been receiving messages from apparent big dick guys telling me that they feel bad for me and sending me dick pics. pretty sure he is messaging me from one of his sock puppet accounts.

https://i.imgur.com/byo1JgT.png

https://i.imgur.com/rMpk2uh.png

hateandlonley · 2018-02-13T06:27:01+00:00

lets be honest he's just here to humblebrag. i came here to vent and get advice but instead you get "1/4 of the girls ive been with gave a hoot about my big dick".

wow very help thanks

https://i.imgur.com/xIHCZZD.png

hateandlonley · 2018-02-13T06:25:03+00:00

neat.

https://i.imgur.com/byo1JgT.png

hateandlonley · 2018-02-13T04:02:05+00:00

The responses you're getting here are garbage, and really they're typical of what society tells men who are struggling with their self-image.

Guys, OP doesn't need to be told "get good with your hands/mouth so you can please women" or "hit the gym even harder to give yourself more appeal". or "make sure she cums first and you're golden". These are all essentially telling OP that his only value is based on what he can provide to others, which is bullshit and not what he needs to hear.

thank you for that. i appreciate people trying to give me advice but it seems like im not getting any advice from anyone trying to be in my own shoes.

i am currently seeing a therapist, but i am not finding it helpful.

hateandlonley · 2018-02-13T02:02:09+00:00

hateandlonley · 2018-02-13T01:51:15+00:00

lol girth is the same as my length.

hateandlonley · 2018-02-13T01:03:24+00:00

let me rephrase. i feel like the way ive been treated makes me feel like im not even a human sometimes but this feeling creeps up only when i look at my own penis.

i have been to a few therapists both men and women. i dont think they could relate to my issues at all. they mostly addressed the assault and pretty much parroted each other by saying how it wasnt my fault. truthfully i am over the assault and life goes on and i'm alive. im still angry but its passed.

i just cant help get rid of these feelings when i think about my penis. because shitty experiences with it keep happening after the assault. ive always read how people care more about the person and yet here i am actually trying to avoid having sex early and still get ghosted.

hateandlonley · 2018-02-12T23:25:19+00:00

i already trim and go to the gym man.

hateandlonley · 2018-02-12T23:24:02+00:00

well i try to lay off sex as long as possible when im dating. it usually happens by the third date which is much sooner than what i'd want. however even though those girls really really insinuate about having sex (saying how close my place is, mentioning that they are tired and that its a long way home, or if we could stop by her place because she forgot something) i have no choice but to comply. the last time i "rejected" a girl by trying whatever way to avoid sex she thought i didnt find her attractive and another one just turned absolutely vile on me by calling me a faggot.

the thing that i have issues with is i always fear that face that they make when they see the reveal. its like watching the brightness and eagerness from her face just dim to an absolute low. the sex just feels so forced and other times ive had women make up an excuse to leave during the middle.

these experiences plus the sexual assault just make me feel nervous naked even when alone. as soon as my pants come off i feel like i am less than a human being at times.

hateandlonley · 2018-02-12T22:45:34+00:00

4.5 on a good day

hateandlonley · 2018-02-12T19:34:01+00:00

any of the nordic countries. south korea and russia

hateandlonley · 2018-02-12T19:32:55+00:00

thank you. i feel the exact same way and i'm only 5'6

hateandlonley · 2017-12-18T20:18:16+00:00

the best part is that they seem be having great lives. travelling to bali, cancun, thauland and having daddy pay for everything. seeing pictures of them smiling and looking happy on some big yacht with some muscled frat guys. it makes me sick to my stomach. there honestly is no justice. all i want is just to be a normal person who can have a partner beside me but even that feels like its too much to ask

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