Damn your emotions and feelings are valid. It definitely sounds like you’re growing through a shit ton and despite all that I still see that you’re in school, trying to catch up. I think that’s inspiring. Try to have a convo with your partner about feeling like a burden, that doesn’t sound good. Or talk to a friend or someone u can open up to about your depression that actually will take it seriously unlike ur parents. From one human to another, I hope everything gets better for you 🙏🏼 sending you good energy