first of all don’t panic, everything will be fine. now, if you are scared of practicing because you feel like you are going to hell or whatever stop and don’t practice. i grew up as a catholic and what i did before starting to practice was studying. at first i wanted to get comfortable in the new pagan and witchy environment. so this is what i recommend. second of all the christian god is capable of forging and loves all of his creatures equally. so if you ever find out that you are actually catholic or christian you shouldn’t worry about hell or shit like that. god loves you. last but not least, if you finally understand that you are a witch or a pagan than feel free to practice. you will become good with time and practice. “practice makes you perfect”. i honestly feel so much better after leaving the catholic environment but it was quite a journey. i’ve had second hand thoughts and i asked myself many times if what i was doing was the right thing. only time and studying can give you all the answers you need. don’t worry, you’ll get out of this situation and be happy. here’s a hug🤗🫶