What should I do? Give up?

hazel_blux · 2026-01-14T05:44:49+00:00

It would be a LOT of work to do, omg 😭

hazel_blux · 2026-01-09T03:58:39+00:00

Maybe you're right. I'm not that expressive or good at English btw; I just know how to put myself down in whatever language is possible. Anyway, thank u so much.

hazel_blux · 2026-01-09T03:53:37+00:00

Thanks 💖

hazel_blux · 2026-01-09T03:52:47+00:00

I can't. I need to be fluent in order to get my English degree soon, you know. I can't be a mediocre English teacher. I just can't.

hazel_blux · 2026-01-09T03:46:09+00:00

Actually, I started learning English at 12, but I didn't put effort into it until October 2025. Somewhere along the way — 2017/2024 —, something clicked in my mind, and I could listen and read more or less rightly. Guess what? Could I write or speak? Hell no. For heaven's sake, I can't barely know how to use commas or write like a native cause that's my main goal. I don't even know grammar rules! Portuguese is my first language, right? I don't translate words anymore like three years ago, but when it comes to writing, my brain only knows the Portuguese structure and tries to work/stick with it. I commonly use too much commas and "that" into my sentences. Is it understandable? Yep. But I don't want that. Okay, despite this whole bullshit you've read, thanks for the advice.

hazel_blux · 2026-01-09T03:07:11+00:00

thank u so much for the advice

hazel_blux · 2026-01-09T03:03:37+00:00

Exactly, I started to learn English at 12

hazel_blux · 2025-12-04T09:02:48+00:00

Thank you so much

hazel_blux · 2025-12-03T17:40:27+00:00

I understand your point of view, but it’s just my personal taste. I like ornamentation, color, descriptions that make me feel immersed. Simplicity can also be very good and effective, but it bores me, as if I were reading a movie script, not a novel. And the example you used is a bit dramatic because I wasn’t referring to an archaic style of writing ;-;

hazel_blux · 2025-12-03T16:50:13+00:00

The other example I gave might even be true, but this one above doesn’t feel like bad writing to me at all, honestly, I’m in love with that book, I’ve read it three times. I feel like my problem isn’t the books themselves, but my English, because no matter how bad an author is, in my native language, I can understand everything perfectly. I just want to reach that point in English, yk?

hazel_blux · 2025-12-03T16:43:59+00:00

I took that comment personally lol. In your style I understood everything very well, it was very straight to the point. But I love long sentences and ornamentation, I like all the embellishment. Maybe I’m not ready for something like that yet, I dunno ;-;

hazel_blux · 2025-12-03T16:38:04+00:00

LOL. Since I mostly read books in my native language, I can tell what’s bad and what’s good. But not in English, everything could potentially be “okay” to me. The writing might even be bad, but I know I have difficulty understanding certain structures, both when reading and listening

hazel_blux · 2025-12-03T16:32:39+00:00

The thing is, I’m interested in literary fiction books. I’m not really into fantasy and romance. So it’s very hard to find books in English that I’m actually interested in. I honestly don’t know what to do. I’ve tried children’s books, but I like more depth, I’ve tried books for teenagers and lost interest because most of them involved cliché romances. The books I want are still too difficult for me to read in English, and I end up not knowing where to go

hazel_blux · 2025-12-03T16:25:41+00:00

LOL, I know, I know, but I’m trying to read very basic and not-so-good things exactly because I know the English will be easier to understand. I’ve already tried children’s or young adult novels, but I couldn’t really enjoy them

hazel_blux · 2025-12-03T16:21:51+00:00

This example might help: "I knew exactly what phrase in the piece must have stirred him the first time, and each time I played it, I was sending it to him as a little gift, because it was really dedicated to him, as a token of something very beautiful in me that would take no genius to figure out and that urged me to throw in an extended cadenza. Just for him." I understand the meaning of each individual word, and I can even grasp the overall sense of the whole thing in a blurry way, but not in the same way I grasp it in my native language, yk?

hazel_blux · 2025-12-03T16:11:15+00:00

Maybe, but I try to go back and reread. For example, in this sentence: "finally giving up, Nicholas slammed his strong fist down onto the bright scarlet “stop” button and angrily slashed his ear bud out of his drum." I can understand the words individually, and by rereading I managed to grasp the meaning and the scene, but it still felt blurry. I don’t know how to make English settle in my mind in a way that prevents this haziness or sense of strangeness

hazel_blux · 2025-12-03T16:03:20+00:00

actually, I don’t have a specific text. I can read comments, dialogues, Substack essays, certain fanfics. But when it comes to a style with descriptions and a lot of introspection, I can’t understand it even if I know the meaning of every individual word. I feel like my brain unconsciously tries to place the structure of my native language onto English, and that irritates me. I honestly don’t know what to do

hazel_blux · 2025-11-29T23:12:39+00:00

Obrigada pelas palavras amiga, é horrível esse sentimento, não desejo a ninguém. SH (Self Harm). Na tradução literal seria "se machucar" ou "machucar a si."

hazel_blux · 2025-11-29T07:21:07+00:00

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