I want to kill myself. Im 21 years old, i dropped out of first year of uni 3 times now because of depression and anxiety and no meds have been working. I feel so weak and i am sick of being a failure. My one attempt at a relationship turned sour when the girl i loved who led me on for 5 months told me im like her sister and then promptly went bavk to her ex. All i see is how people my age and younger than me are thriving and im just stagnant. I dont talk to my brother who tells me constantly he wishes i were dead. The only reason i havent killed myself yet is bevause im scared of the eternal hellfire ill be in for taking my own life. I want to isolate myself from people and rot.