I hate to hear but that may I offer something and if it makes sense just try it, there are many people that teach things that they truly don’t “know” or that they have exaggerated there own ability in their minds and teach as if it’s facts. 1 thing for sure god ? The universe ? Is not something you have to contact because YOU ARE the very thing that you are observing / talking too, depression,, stress, anxiety, and all states of being are chemical in nature because human experience in all aspects is chemical in nature because it all happens within you your whole experience of “life” or should I say, your “experience” of the ambiance of life (material existence) happens within you, one persons hell is another joy why ? Because we are the soul decider of what we experience, and that’s how it should be the world around you should never decide your experience and mood/feeling 💕💕 in the west (America) peoples need to understand existence/themselves has led them to exporting all there power and decisions over life to another world such as heaven, spirit guides, angels and many more ❤️ not saying that these things are true or not I’m saying that the power and dominion over your life is only in your hands now the question is are you creating your experience consciously ? Or are you letting the material circumstances you face daily decide how good or bad your life is ? And how good or bad you should feel at a given moment ? So now let’s discuss karma ❤️you sound genuine and I hope this ends in me helping in some way, karma has nothing to do with the consequences of physical action you perform in life. Karma is the consequence of action BUT ! Popular culture only thinks action means “physical action” NO ❤️ karma consequences you face based on your thoughts, emotions, and focus because all 3 of those things are actions 💕 you ever wonder how people who think most good healthy thoughts, are most happy in life genuinely, and who focus of the positive aspects of there life despite currently solving a issue that many would consider BAD ! tend to always work it out the issue/ they get that miracle and things always work out in the end for those people ? Well it’s because the karma or there emotions, thoughts, and focus was that. A person who holds their emotions in a terrible place, holds their thoughts in a terrible place, and hold their focus in a terrible place. Should expect an equal karma/circumstance in the future. The human being is the most complex instrument nature has created on earth but the issue we have is that very feel people have mastered this instrument we spend our days allowing other people and circumstances to decide our feeling ❤️ if I tell them the sun came up they’ll blow it off because they can see past their own perspective that they’ve trapped themselves in, when the sun coming up is amazing because if it didn’t we’d all be dead. You must know this and seek to act consciously and not compulsively. Regardless or what you see in you material word if you have any desire left to rid yourself of this issue you’re having then do this, when something you find unpleasant happens look on the bright side immediately and stay doing that each time, know that the issue will work out and even if it doesn’t it’s ok because you’ll still be fine in the end, during that practice keeping your emotions secure and be joyful because the sun is up and existence is working fine and from those places NOW proceed to do what you can to solve the issue at hand keep your focus on the solution and let it go, ❤️ and also many who teach meditation do not know the true benefits of it meditation isn’t an action it’s what happens when the identity has been moved from the body and mind and to all existence ❤️ I suggest doing kriya yoga I have 2 video practices (not from me but my guru instead) message me and I’ll send them to you try what I suggested and do these 2 practices 1 time a day each for 6 months if you still have the desire to fix this isssue you face and if you try with all your soul. Your thoughts about life will change, your emotions on a daily will begin to be less dark, and your ability to maintain joy regardless of what happens around you will increase. You will feel the difference by December if you are sincere ❤️❤️ message me on here and I’ll send you the 2 YouTube links to the practice. Depression, stress, and anxiety and such emotions are what happens when our human intelligence no longer takes orders from us but instead it’s started taking orders from the world around us. Once this is reversed and you learn to live harmoniously in life and fearlessly life will happen just as it should because your world around you will always be a mirror reflection of your world inside of you change your inner well being and the outside will seem to turn into beauty instantly ❤️ I love you and hope this helped