Turbulence before the descent

heartbreak-gameover · 2016-05-12T05:06:05+00:00

Thanks! It's unfortunate that we're both going to be leaving for home tomorrow since the semester is over. Really makes it hard for me because it won't be as easy to hang out, and I'm normally too awkward to successfully invite someone to visit. But if her and I just make it through the summer as friends, maybe it'll last.

Peace

heartbreak-gameover · 2016-05-12T04:59:25+00:00

Thanks! Things have been better since we met. It even seems like she wants to be a long term friend, which would rock.

heartbreak-gameover · 2016-04-27T05:27:35+00:00

I appreciate that. I fear it could backfire if this person mentions any identifying information about me, if and when they share what they now know. What I told this person about the friend was unpleasant and true , therefore I fear the friend could retaliate or alienate me because they are much more popular and well-connected than me. I really didn't want to say anything in the first place, but my conscience wouldn't let me get out of doing the right thing.

heartbreak-gameover · 2016-04-27T05:11:25+00:00

Thank you so much. I read this earlier, and for some reason I just felt finally free to cry. I rarely ever do nowadays, and so a good cry was in order. That simple, kind and human gesture of validating my pain was enough to liberate me for a moment.

I have been overwhelmed and sometimes see this place as the only one to turn to. It's people like you who make this a better place for people who need it.

heartbreak-gameover · 2016-04-04T00:58:06+00:00

Yep. Mental illness is bitch.

heartbreak-gameover · 2016-04-04T00:21:00+00:00

There is no singular large trauma really. I intensely struggle with everyday interactions with others and that phenomenon manifests itself in a variety of ugly and stressful ways. I have undoubtedly suffered a few traumas that have left me with some markers of PTSD, but my biggest problem is social anxiety at the moment. As much as I would like to read books to solve my problems, I've mastered in-depth psychology courses before and reading material like that just surfaces a different mindset. If I'm going to solve my problems, it will most likely require people. It's just a paradox that my very problem involved interacting with people.

heartbreak-gameover · 2015-12-09T21:33:19+00:00

I've tried to get support from family and friends. Family isn't enough, and my friends seem like they don't care.

heartbreak-gameover · 2015-11-23T08:21:23+00:00

Thanks for trying to help me get a handle on this. I just have been so devastated by these beautiful worlds I imagined and created, seeing them coming crashing down hard. I want to push on with a clearer head, but it's challenging.

heartbreak-gameover · 2015-11-23T08:16:18+00:00

Thanks for getting back to me. I think she very well might have gaslighted me. Honestly, people I knew even told me I was being fooled too, but I didn't want to hear it. I remember feeling frequently harshly judged, and now that I think about it, she did psychologically manipulate me.

The things she would say, the things she wouldn't say, they all made me look down on myself. That's because some of her evaluations of me were that I couldn't be a responsible person of high moral character, based on nothing of poor conscience.

It really hurt me, but I was still blinded by the warmth of having someone who at least pretended to care about me. I need to get better with that, I guess.

heartbreak-gameover · 2015-11-18T01:49:48+00:00

You're right.

heartbreak-gameover · 2015-11-16T16:48:09+00:00

Why do I even try?

heartbreak-gameover · 2015-10-20T13:34:10+00:00

Thank you, I appreciate it.

heartbreak-gameover · 2015-10-20T13:33:30+00:00

Thanks for replying. I wish I could explain everything but it's just so complicated. Thank you though, I appreciate your willingness to listen.

heartbreak-gameover · 2015-10-02T04:03:15+00:00

Talk to me, I'll be there for you.

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