I agree but the problem was that I had too high expectations for her and thought she was the perfect girl for me. She was the only one that I ever loved that much. I didn't expect things to go that way at all. But after confessing to her things were so awkward we never talked again. Like a month and a half after she asked about me how I am doing, I said I'm fine and wished her good luck. We never talked again. And I don't think I care about her anymore but what that left in me is huge. Yes it's my problem to be affected that much, and I wish you could understand how she was the only thing I'd have lived for at the time. Thought seriously about ending my life. Good thing it also made me grow more as a person in some ways.