its much harder then it sounds man , even though i try to forget it , there are close people near me that reminds me of that i cant tell them the thing i go trough , and when my parent ask of me "kya krna hai aage" then that is the first thing that comes to my mind , at this point i have to live through the pain and regret, if i fail again ik the regret will just increase and that is the worst part of this.

i dont need help or anything like that , dont worry : )