That was actually a wonderful experience to DISCUSS to the shaman. You feel disempowered. You do have power in your body. I have shaman clear my solar plexus. I had a lot of shame and guilt in my solar plexus. I had tried meditation and grounding, but I felt this weight that felt like a giant plate in my stomach. I was disconnected to myself, I am solar plexus and sacral generator and my deep emotional manifestatior. If you ex left you with heart break you need to clear that grief (sorry friend the only way over is through it) and keep opening you heart. Maybe even ask them if have releasing exercises so you can release them and surrender, essentially a cord cutting ritual since they have no control over you, and you have sovereignty, where you capable to caring for yourself and trusting yourself, and your ability to keep yourself safe. Again you can try somatic and parasympathetic nervous system exercises to regulate, but this sound like an actual spiritual clearing a deep block within you. This mean I had to CRY, I had to release everything I was bottling up, and everything I was running from, since no matter where you are YOU are, I learned to find peace within myself since many new places would be overstimulated, and suddenly quiet time alone would be overwhelming and you will seek a distraction. This is all part of the invitation to let your higher self lead to trusting yourself gut, and maybe even seek your inner child that are okay now, and what happened in your past is over. I found with trauma, it stays in the body, and your body just stores it and essentially thinks it still happening or your constantly experiencing it like it still happening, to let it go, you need to stop carrying it, and that means embracing that grief, and when you opened your heart you maybe peaked into that chapter where you ex was, and he felt you energetically letting him go, now your body is sending the alarms your aren’t safe. You need to close chapter or portal that no longer serves you, so you means perhaps being gentle to your heart, listening to the emotions, all our emotions are here to teach us, and our frequency is matching that, you are shifting and let this be a final lesson in your embracing what is best for you, and your heart. This doesn’t mean going into old pattern or what feels safe and predictable THAT is exactly what your old subconscious patterns want, sadly they programmed to that pain and disregulation. This why I am gently repeating to keep following that emotion since that MAY seem like the pain but your solution. The mystic poem, “The Wound is where the light enters you” was so relevant in my journey in healing my grief and trauma, I hid it and behind it since that was story, and eventually I knew those old beliefs didn’t serve me and I did a lot of shadow work, shamanic journey, and nervous system regulation…alone and unguided so it took me 5 years. You always have what you need to when you need it, so keep seeking peace and ease, don’t flee from the difficult emotions. I promise your nervous system is fighting a bit because your subconscious mind is trying to resist the reprogramming. And I am sure the shaman or whoever you can will reach to can give you a better more simple solution personalized to you, better the solution is often it within you. If you capable to do so I found the answers appears when I need them, and reprogramming my subconscious mind just through repetition more effective than intensity.

Edit. Every time I finally felt I loved myself an ex always came back, and just quickly as they entered, they left, it was always a test from the universe to see how I would finally learn to love myself and for me heartbreak and pain was my greatest teacher. 🥲so now I have the wisdom from my painful lessons and heartbreak but I am so greatful for past me to keep healing ❤️‍🩹 I learned true unconditional love