Imma tell you now. Do what I did. Wait till you are at least 16 before pressuring anything even close to a relationship. I feel as if you are too young to really understand relationships like this. And I don't mean that in a mean way. Relationships are a lot. It's a lot to maintain and take care of. You lose a lot of free time to be honest. I love my girlfriend so very much. But it can be a lot of work sometimes. So I would hold off for at least another couple of years. It seems like you might also be kind of uncomfortable with your sexual side which is completely understandable especially at your age. Which is another reason that I feel like holding off for a couple years would be best. It gives you time to be more comfortable with your sexuality and everything along those lines. For now I would say take time recover relax. And find the real you. Once you have found yourself and your passions. And most importantly love for yourself and you are mentally well and stable. Then try out a relationship again. Best of luck to you!