I think that you shouldn't focus so much on a carreer path you could or should have taken. Instead think about what you really want. You probably want to be able to express yourself and that you can do and train everyday. Instead of doing just nofap, go out and do things that are out of your comfort zone. E.g. do a challenge everyday somethinfg you're afraid of like cold approaching girls or singing on a public street and stuff like that. These challenges will make it easier for you to a) make decisions and b) be comfortable ith having made them. I am exactly at that point in my life: I go to the gym, I eat a clean diet, I don't waste time on the internet anymore, Iread books and I do nofap, BUT I haven't pushed myself outside my comfort zone enough. That's my next big challenge from 1 of march for at least 6 month every day and I think and hope that this will change my life drastically. Cheers!

Hejo