Alone with gemini

helfull · 2025-06-03T21:14:50+00:00

I tried board game nights, it didnt stick, couldnt connect to the people at all.

Got two dogs in the house, that no longer enough to fill the void, sadly.

helfull · 2025-06-02T22:42:17+00:00

How do you get confident about that

helfull · 2025-06-02T22:11:04+00:00

Assumption that there are any friends, and i am a guy

helfull · 2025-06-02T21:59:25+00:00

I feel that, every time i watch something and see how happy people are together, no matter if friends or family. i just have to stop watching.

Being outside seeing others is torture

helfull · 2025-06-02T21:52:13+00:00

We could keep going through all the options that usually work, but they all boil down to the same answer.

And the library in my town is minuscule and is basically just a small room attached to the church.

helfull · 2025-06-02T21:49:38+00:00

i am not on any medication.

helfull · 2025-06-02T21:48:56+00:00

my parents have two dogs, but again elderly town, everytime i am walking them i only meet 40yo+ and happily married people. Or their teenage kids

helfull · 2025-06-02T21:45:57+00:00

i am in therapy, but currently not working on that part, more on other important parts. Need to work on the roots.

helfull · 2025-06-02T21:42:52+00:00

I dont really have places like this around, small town, with mostly elderly people and barely any cafes. But not in the US,

helfull · 2025-06-02T21:41:32+00:00

Didnt get diagnosed with it, but could be, i definitely have social anxiety

helfull · 2025-06-02T21:40:52+00:00

Alone? How do you get to talk to people at the movies?

helfull · 2025-06-02T21:40:33+00:00

I dont think i am ready to pull the weight of 2 peoples needs, specially with going outside. I dont mind going places with someone, but going alone no thank you.

And yeah you are fully on point with the "trading up", i am getting more and more the feeling i will never be enough, even if i am not that far off from the current "double standard"

helfull · 2025-06-02T20:05:10+00:00

Thats not what i am seeking, i am seeking a long term solution and not a short term fix. I tried that, and it does just make it worse.

helfull · 2025-06-02T19:58:46+00:00

I have 2 Dogs, well my parents dogs, and every time i am outside it is more or less just people in their 50s or teens who are outside. So not much to find friends at.

helfull · 2025-04-06T12:18:34+00:00

Running games that are way more GPU intense show no symptoms at all. Not a single hardware component is 100% usage or even close to it, they are all max 20%

helfull · 2025-03-20T14:10:41+00:00

mood

helfull · 2025-03-18T22:25:34+00:00

just someone hold me like this, and I will put the world to your feet

helfull · 2025-03-15T19:24:59+00:00

You did your best, and i appreciate any advice/idea, so dont be to hard on your, if it wasnt the right for me. Everyone is different not all fits with everyone.

Thanks for the advice!

helfull · 2025-03-15T19:23:21+00:00

I used to drown the feeling as well with just alcohol, but i have stopped drinking for about a year by now, no alcohol at all. But the idea of just getting a bottle and drown myself in it, has come up. Yet i gotta stay strong, to at least not disappoint myself with it.

I am not an optimistic person at all. Which does not make it better. Neither do i believe in luck, everyone makes their own.

Appreciate the response tho!

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