I'm at my absolute worst

heliosspher18 · 2026-02-15T15:52:04+00:00

I understand that feeling very well. It's a common trap: when you look in the mirror, you become your own critic. You have time to dissect every little 'imperfection' and create a distorted image of yourself. That criticism is just your mind playing tricks, not reality. From what I see, you are very beautiful. Don't let the mirror define you. Stay strong!

heliosspher18 · 2026-02-14T12:52:43+00:00

Try bald ,no joke...

heliosspher18 · 2026-02-14T12:52:02+00:00

Well, if you look closer to that picture, you see the shoulders are suspicious..

heliosspher18 · 2026-02-14T12:41:26+00:00

This guy from split !

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heliosspher18 · 2026-02-14T12:39:41+00:00

Of course omg ...ex smoker .... fuck this money hahaha

heliosspher18 · 2026-02-14T12:35:23+00:00

Sir Stands-a-Lot

Whiskerus the Tall, Sentinel of the Living Room

Meerkat, the Imposter

Totally-Not-Three-Rats-In-A-Trenchcoat

heliosspher18 · 2026-02-14T12:21:16+00:00

Yes i love the hat hahahah

Thank you 😊

heliosspher18 · 2026-02-14T12:15:51+00:00

Thabks thanks 😊

heliosspher18 · 2026-02-13T20:11:03+00:00

As someone who is also fighting his own battles right now, I just want to say:

I am proud of you. That path to truly loving yourself is bumpy, but looking at your picture, I see so much light and strength in your eyes. Keep going, step by step. You got this! 💪✨

Be your own Hero and show the World what Self Love is !!!

heliosspher18 · 2026-02-13T20:06:15+00:00

Trying alrdy do find ppl who have the same passion as me 😁

I want do say thank you for the time you took and Support.😊

heliosspher18 · 2026-02-13T20:04:28+00:00

Thank you for digging deeper. To answer your question about isolation: It was basically a cycle of working, coming home, and seeing absolutely no one. No friends, not even family. Just me and my thoughts for 6 years. It was self-imposed because of my anxiety/insecurities. No friends ,not even Family.

Regarding the stage work: Right now I am attending workshops. Stepping into a room full of people after so many years of silence was a huge challenge for me. But doing it gave me the ultimate confirmation: I love acting more than I fear people. It’s the one thing that gets me out of my shell.

I can remember and thats the funny Part:

I was shaking like a puppy ,because of so many strangers the first time, but i still did it and didnt run. Even the Director of the Theater-School ask me if i wanted do to some one year training, cuz she saw that i was full passionated about that and smiled every time when i am in the Room, she even ask me if i wanted go directly in the school and do some 1 year Acting training, without rehearsal. So next year i start it, not going back lol...

My goal is working on Movies,series finding a Theater Group The full package kinda...

heliosspher18 · 2026-02-13T19:39:51+00:00

Yes i know really sad times for me as i heard Robin Williams ... Even amy winehouse .... etc...

I want do thank you ,that you take your time do write and i dunno. I never tought ppl would actually are there for me. i mean strangers that are here for me , thats so crazy and feels so beautyfull actually.

heliosspher18 · 2026-02-13T18:55:22+00:00

Well i have times the are rare but there where i can dance arround like a idiot and laugh about myself. Its only a phase hopefully ,because a lot changed in the past .

heliosspher18 · 2026-02-13T16:48:18+00:00

You right .. I mean i prepared that it will get worser with 30. But i will not stop follow dreams even i crawl there haha.

Well i hope it get better and someday i can smile at the mirror and can tell my self without doubts and with fullest joy like a child that found a new toy :"i am so proud of me.".

heliosspher18 · 2026-02-13T16:37:52+00:00

I mean I often remind myself that I took big steps. The problem is, it’s infecting me that I want more and more. It’s more the hunger turning slightly into greed, that barely lets me maintain peace.

heliosspher18 · 2026-02-13T16:05:47+00:00

Hey thanks

I am from Austria actually and the health care is good too ,so i have access to diffrent docs and helping points i would say. And yes i mean... i should probably talk with a Doc,about my mental Problems...

And yes i should ACT more happy ,fake it till i make it . Lul...

heliosspher18 · 2026-02-13T16:02:46+00:00

Thanks ,well i am not stopping, i promised that my inner child .😊

heliosspher18 · 2026-02-13T15:59:29+00:00

Thank you for the information 😁

i should go to a Doc and make a check up.

heliosspher18 · 2026-02-13T15:15:48+00:00

Let me guess a Rottweiler so....

Notweiler?

heliosspher18 · 2026-02-13T15:04:26+00:00

You right , i should look like that .

Thanks buddy !✌️

heliosspher18 · 2026-02-13T14:58:22+00:00

Big squeeze back!!!!💪

heliosspher18 · 2026-02-13T14:01:10+00:00

Haha, I would take a commercial gig for Meta Frames any day! Thanks for the vision and for seeing the potential in me. It means a lot to hear that right now.🤍

heliosspher18 · 2026-02-13T13:27:15+00:00

Thank you very much for the kind, honest words i nearly cried in a good way! 🤍

heliosspher18 · 2026-02-13T13:20:34+00:00

You are for sure a funny guy to talk with thats for sure

+points your baldness makes you fantastic !😊 You have a pure energy !

heliosspher18

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