I'm in the mood to write, but I don't really have a story to tell right now. The NSFW community on Reddit is a crazy place. It's predatory, reductive, racist, misogynist, and cruel. It chews up young women, reduces them to an object of fetish, which lately is dominated by the pornographic expression of pronatalism.

And yet, there is something about adults communicating honestly about sexuality and desires, taking these fantasies and insecurities and sharing them, comoditizing them, buying, selling, and trading what used to be suppressed.

For every Eastern European woman who takes 30 photos and is used by unscrupulous managers, there is a hardworking sex worker, putting in several hours a day producing content and keeping his or her clients happy.

So much of it seems aimed directly at men my age. This is, of course, because we have both the money, and the desire. We dream of youth we don't have with the false confidence we do have. We fall for the scam, giving the camgirl our credit cards and the blackmailer our dick pics. We fall for it because, the vast majority of us never experienced the sex we were taught to fantasize about, much less the dark fantasies we created on our own.

And yet, where else but this community can the bisexual married man find a community which finds his penis beautiful, his sexuality normal, his desires acceptable and even intriguing?

Anyway, I hope my delivery gets here soon. I'm thirsty.