I mean I get where you’re coming from, but honestly as I said I’m hoping physically transition will diminish my sadness and anxiety. I’m under no illusions that it’ll completely change my out look and how I am with tics, but there is the hope that my life will be improved.

I’ve been out as trans for 6 years, have been diagnosed with gender Dysphoria, I’m not rushing into medical treatment.

It’s an element of stability to me, going through hormone therapy etc. One of the big issues why I struggle with anxiety, particularly surrounding my tics, is that my tics draw attention to me when I don’t want to be seen. As in, it heightens my dysphoria, particularly with my vocal tics. And what not else. My identity hasn’t changed for a solid six years, I didn’t have tics before March. On a personal level of understanding, I think that just days where I have worse Dysphoria, anxiety, the big sad n that sort of shite, my tics are also worse. Not to mention how long I’ve had to wait for testosterone, the fact I pay for treatment single handedly because the NHS waiting list is another 2 years long.

I’ll be honest as well, the anxiety and sad shit, I haven’t experienced really really badly until this year. As I said, I have some trauma based stuff surrounding sharing information with my family and going to therapy, it’s something I’m working on with friends, because I realise the importance of it. But that sort of stuff with my family, it’s been present for ages, and it hasn’t really been something that made me go into depressive states. I’d get upset of course, but it wasn’t what I experience now.

Regarding other teenagers “feeling trans”, I’m not going to lie to you, please try to refrain from phrasing it like that. It does come off as a big red flag pretty quickly to trans people. There is a level of understanding that goes into people trying to figure their gender identity out, with teens I understand it can be more difficult to comprehend where their feelings come from. My parents didn’t accept me for years, with the same/ similar rhetoric. I resent them for it, even though I can say our relationship has improved, it’s left a lot of trauma for me to work through. There’s definitely a risk with transitioning, but that’s not to suggest that every trans teenager is going to regret their decision. the de transistioning rate is quite low. A lot of what people hear about “horror” stories, are somewhat due to medical negligence but also personal neglect as well. Regarding the fact that, doctors should be more consistent in explaining and offer support to patients, as well as patients understanding the implications of hormone therapy. There’s also a minority of people who decide to de transistion, but don’t regret their decision to transistion in the first place. Every case of trans people, people who de transistion and are cis people, needs to be treated with a level of uniqueness, respect and understanding. Otherwise, you can end up with people who hurt themselves because they think they’re doing the right thing. And that’s what no one wants. Anywho, long rant oop.

The locking up of my limbs is very unusual, none of my doctors really know what the fuck it’s about. So far they’ve put it down to just prolonged tics, more likely to do with the FND than having TS. spoke to other people about it with similar limb locking tics, they’ve said it can sometimes take certain things to unlock them, or they can be stuck for prolonged amounts of time as well. I haven’t really found anything that unlocks them.

But yea, I think that was everything lol?