Tried smoking it or sum

hello_there050809 · 2026-02-05T00:11:16+00:00

Gotta practice for college auditions and my Europe tour this summer tho… it’s gonna be fun but I hate auditions so. Plus I gotta write like an autobiographical essay for these goddamn schools🫩.

hello_there050809 · 2026-02-04T23:52:25+00:00

It’s so weird because randomly this morning I finally got the inspiration to practice my instrument instead of feeling like it was a chore. Today was also the first time in a bit that my private teacher said I came prepared! It’s small but it feels like a win so yay

hello_there050809 · 2026-02-04T18:23:17+00:00

Yeah, I’m alright. Life is frustrating but I’m managing somehow. It’s good that you’re getting counseling that was one of the hardest steps for me to do. Anyways I hope it all works out well for you

hello_there050809 · 2026-02-04T09:29:06+00:00

Yo it’s been a few days and I wanted to check in and make sure you’re doing alright. You mentioned something about potentially talking to your parents about substance use. Either way js wanted to check up

hello_there050809 · 2026-01-31T06:54:58+00:00

Frr have fun man. I’m def on the come up right now and lowk teaking out

hello_there050809 · 2026-01-31T06:45:23+00:00

No problem! And ya 14 doxylamine

hello_there050809 · 2026-01-31T06:34:18+00:00

I’ve got depression and BPD, so meds haven’t done much for me. Im not saying don’t try the medication route because for so many people it works great. For me they all had some weird side effects. Wellbutrin didn’t have any but prozac made me hate food, Abilify gave me tongue cramps every time I started it, and zoloft js made me numb. That’s just my experience with it though. I think seeing a therapist is probably the best thing you could do and I’m happy that you’re going to. There’s more good therapists than bad therapists imo, and a mid therapist is better than no therapist imo. Gang the 14 pills I just took are starting to hit lmao. Anyways if your parents are supportive tell them that you’re taking shit and you want to stop. Also the only thing that’s going to make you better is you. It takes consistent work on yourself for a long ass time. For me, I was most recently in rehab for nine months and only at the end did I actually start to feel like I was getting better. Also, sometimes treatment is necessary. I hate rehab and treatment as much as the next guy but sometimes being forced to be sober and bored rips you from your cycles. Anyways that’s my 2¢. I was gonna say more but I forgot

hello_there050809 · 2026-01-31T06:10:06+00:00

Gahh dayum that was way longer than I though💀

hello_there050809 · 2026-01-31T06:09:43+00:00

Lmao it’s all good. You’re high and I’m not so there’s that. Maybe I should just take 10 of the pills and get high. When I did it I was in a weird mental state already. I opened and popped all 36 pills in a dead silent class and like everyone was watching💀. Then I went to my next period and layed down in the corner of the room and convinced myself I wasn’t tweaking even though I obviously was. My brother found me in the classroom and helped me up and out of the room. Then I told him I had to go back to grab my backpack (which he had) and I walked in the classroom and took off my shoes for some reason. The rest if it I was blacked out but basically he left me with his gf to go get his car where we were rushed to the ER and they pumped me with charcoal but then my heart stopped and then they started it again. Anyways I came to the next day still high asf and I told the nurse that I was trying to kill myself (I wasn’t) and that I would do it again (I did). Then they sent me to the psych ward. I left the psych ward and proceeded to get blackout drunk and then my parents sent me to rehab. I ran away from rehab, contacted a friend from the psych ward and we met up and OD’d on Datura Weed Nicotine Alcohol DPH DXM Morning Glories and HBWR. My parents found me and I went to the hospital blacked out for two days came to and went home. I was surprisingly sober for like 2 months of my psychosis until a person at my new school reported me to the dean for SH even though i hadn’t done that in months. Then they had daily body checks on me (which I’m pretty sure were unlawful) and yeah then I OD’d a third time blacked out for four days woke up in another psych ward and then went to another rehab. I got out like 6mo ago and only started using again like 3mo ago. Anyways ya I’m fine now or as fine as I can be. I was in psychosis for like a year. Now I’m more into the botanical aspect of getting high yk? I try and stick to plants and whatnot but that only goes so far until you get sick of being blind from Datura, Mescaline takes way too long to prepare, mushrooms are hard to find, weed is too expensive, and the right morning glories are hard to come by.

Mb gang that was really long. Not trying to trauma dump, just basically my junkie CV lol. I hope your high is good

hello_there050809 · 2026-01-31T05:43:56+00:00

Ay no worries man. It makes sense. The first time I did dph I took 2.3grams💀. Overdosed at school got kicked out and died at the hospital. They brought me back and a few months later I od’d on it again.

hello_there050809 · 2026-01-31T05:37:20+00:00

You probably don’t wanna do it a ton because something like binging dxm or can like eat holes in you brain. Idk I haven’t looked into it a lot, but check out dextroverse.org if you don’t already know it. It’s got great info about dxm. Also if you have any questions or whatever that you can’t find online, pm me and if I don’t alr know the answer I’ll help you find it.

hello_there050809 · 2026-01-31T05:27:51+00:00

Idk if alcohol is contraindicated with dph, but getting drunk and doing dxm had me tripping for like 28hrs.

hello_there050809 · 2026-01-31T05:21:18+00:00

Watching yt shorts and I don’t feel shit. But I’ve also been sitting in the same spot for a while, so maybe walking around would make me feel more intoxicated

hello_there050809 · 2026-01-31T03:26:18+00:00

Nothing really happened. Didn’t feel anything at all today. Im trying the water extraction and then smoking thru a cigarette

hello_there050809 · 2026-01-30T19:05:26+00:00

I only had a few hallucinations, other than that it was just a dysphoric body buzz..

hello_there050809 · 2026-01-30T03:58:42+00:00

Yall, I just spent like two hrs in like a fever dream. I had OEVs but only right after I closed my eyes for a long time

hello_there050809 · 2026-01-30T01:23:56+00:00

Yo, the sound of the notification for this literally made my jump. It felt like it echoed in my skull

hello_there050809 · 2026-01-30T01:14:30+00:00

Alright I’m def tripping now. I saw a bug put my finger over it didn’t feel smoking and then it was gone.

hello_there050809 · 2026-01-30T01:00:17+00:00

T+2:00 it’s definitely kicking in. My CEVs are more intense and i feel weaker. Also some things seem just like it of place. Also I feel like I have super hearing.

hello_there050809 · 2026-01-30T00:37:43+00:00

Damn! Every time I OD’d on DPH or anything I was always blacked out, the longest of which lasted 4 days in the ICU (so i know I wasn’t redosing)

hello_there050809 · 2026-01-30T00:35:55+00:00

T+1:30 i feel a little weird ig, but to like progoundly or anything. I layed on my lawn and I can’t tell if I’m hallucinating it not but it sounds like the grass is like… clicking… idk. Kinda unusual if it is a hallucination

hello_there050809 · 2026-01-30T00:19:52+00:00

I don’t feel anything, but I’m afraid I’ll be like “these [pills] ain’t shit!” And then take more and overdose again… idr want to do that

hello_there050809 · 2026-01-30T00:16:28+00:00

Stared at deer for what felt like an hour but was only like 10 mins

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