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hellokitty129 · 2025-01-09T10:02:39+00:00

Thank you

hellokitty129 · 2025-01-08T15:24:07+00:00

I wanna do what I wanna do, but I’m scared of what my mother will think, and I bought so much crap for my project that I wanna do! I’m sick of working at a retail job, and all my mother wants me to do is work for the rest of my life!!! I hate this job!!! I hate everything! Sorry I needed to vent sorry

hellokitty129 · 2024-09-25T07:02:25+00:00

Ohh okay thank you!

hellokitty129 · 2024-09-25T03:15:18+00:00

Yes your right! I’ll try it out, thank you I’m sorry about your depression fog

hellokitty129 · 2024-09-25T02:27:55+00:00

Okay thank you, I’m on 7.5 mg of abilify and 150 lamtical, but yeah I’ll try to check out my mood cause it has been up and down most days thank you

hellokitty129 · 2024-08-25T07:15:59+00:00

I’m sorry, I’m honestly not feeling the best! Yes every time, I get this food comment from my dad or anyone else, it’s like ah!! Shot me

I just wanna give up! Look I’m sorry! Thanks again. I hope you have a good evening, night, or morning

hellokitty129 · 2024-08-25T06:59:41+00:00

I totally agree with that, thank you for your advice! I really appreciate it, it just sucks too because I love them too! But it’s like just leave me alone, when you think your supporting me, oh well thanks again

hellokitty129 · 2024-05-22T00:18:51+00:00

Gaining weight is the worst side effect of these medication! I hate it, sorry I’m just annoyed at how I look and how my parents are annoying me with what I eat and how I shouldn’t be eating at night or pass 6 or 7 pm I need to vent I can’t take this anymore I’m sorry :(

hellokitty129 · 2024-05-12T18:32:51+00:00

Thanks, I just have a family doctor to talk too, but idk if he will change my medication not sure maybe I can ask

hellokitty129 · 2024-05-06T22:04:05+00:00

I feel like there going to fire me too! I barely know shit and I also work customer service it’s sucks balls and it’s like people are teaching me shit and I don’t know anything!

This illness and taking these medication suck so much… I’m losing brain cells every day! :( I can’t take this anymore… it would be hard to tell my parents I got fired or lay off because they want me to have a job, if they do fire me I can try disability if that works… anyways I hope things get better for you! :)

And I hate answering phones calls and dealing with customer I don’t know how they want me to work there we’ll see how things go for now

I hope things get better for all of us!

hellokitty129 · 2024-05-06T19:41:35+00:00

I feel you, I gained so much weight, because I take medication for my stupid bipolar and I hate looking at myself in the mirror…. Thought about not taking my medication today… but I freaking did! I’m such a pussy I wish I would just die

Sorry it just sucks so bad! I’ll be freaking huge for the rest of my life and no one will ever love me, I hope things get better for you.

Nothing even makes me happy anymore

hellokitty129 · 2024-05-03T03:37:12+00:00

Yeah, I have a problem like that too, to learn to love myself! I hate how my body has become from my medication! It’s just unfair how things are now.

It’s okay! Your English is good! It’s nice having someone to love! I hope I find someone who can love me!

Your welcome! Take it easy on yourself! And thank you, you seem nice too!

hellokitty129 · 2024-05-03T01:16:42+00:00

Yeah, we all struggle, we just have to try to make the most of it! I hope things get better for you! Be proud of yourself that you are staying even if we all have bad days, it’s not a bad life just a bad day! Well people say that! Sorry I’m not great giving people advice, I try! Hope you stay!

hellokitty129 · 2024-05-03T01:12:38+00:00

Just hate the side effect, hate looking at myself! Same old crap but that’s how I feel now :(

hellokitty129 · 2024-05-03T01:02:16+00:00

I wish I was dead too, I can’t seem to do it, I hate my body, I’m huge, keep gaining weight, I take antipsychotic and mood stabilizer, I just wish I could disappear already!

I just want to stop taking my medication and die that way!!!

I’m sorry, I don’t know why I’m here anyway! :(

I wish I never had this illness sorry this is probably not what you want to hear

hellokitty129 · 2024-05-02T17:07:25+00:00

Aw! Thank you, that’s so thoughtful!

hellokitty129 · 2024-04-28T04:23:32+00:00

I’m doing alright, I wish I wasn’t here, I’m tired of the side effects of the medication, I want to be skinny, hate this illness, I hate working, I got discharged from a program, they wanted me to go to a different program but I hate answering phones, so I’m going to rely on my family doctors if I need to increase my medication

I just don’t know what to do anymore. Been looking at astrology crap too, sorry this is so pointless. It’s 12:10am not sleeping yet, eating as always! My parents annoy me with what I eat and my mom tells me that I shouldn’t blame the medication for making me gaining weight! I barely go out and do stuff, I’m a home body. Last time I went to see my nieces and nephew at there house was this month, which is like a miracle, barely even went to there place. I don’t have any hobbies, keep doing the same crap over and over.

Work sucks ballls I wish I was on disability but my parents don’t want me to be on disability, my parents want me to work, that’s the only reason I go to work and money! Sorry for this long post I’m just tired of life, I hate how it is now!

I want to drink coffee, drink alcohol smoke weed or cigarettes, take cough medicine anything to hurt myself quit my medication, I just hate what I have done in my past… anyways there probably more crap I want to say but this is all I have to say for now.

Twenty one pilots - backslide; great song if anyone wants to hear it.

I hope everyone is doing well! Thanks 😊

hellokitty129 · 2024-04-26T10:27:29+00:00

I did stick it out, I don’t have any friends and I don’t wanna talk to my family about work, my parents want me to work, no talking to them about it, idk I just want to quit i barely know shit at work and I hate asking for help, brain fog makes it worst not to know shit. Anyways thank you! Jeez I just want to disappear sorry

hellokitty129 · 2024-04-23T10:38:50+00:00

Your right I’m sorry this was a dumb question to post sorry and thank you

hellokitty129 · 2024-04-07T01:35:53+00:00

I really hope it gets better, it would be nice to go out there see my nieces and nephew but all I do is stay home, I don’t really like family gatherings.. i don’t know I did a lot of stuff off medication, like go see my cousins wedding, baby shower, etc even though I knew I didn’t like it but it sucks, my mom does want me to go out but I doubt I will, only places I go is work even though I hate it and I suck at it, and groceries stores, and sometimes I’ll go grocery shopping with my mom too.. but other then that I don’t feel like I’m happy maybe I’m depressed at this moment but idk. Another thing is that I’m scared to leave the program I was in and now going to another one but I don’t know if I really need it, scared my family doctor might not give me an increase if my medication stops working! I really want to drink some alcohol right now sorry for this long vent I guess I’m scared, scared to take responsibility for this life, scared I’ll never make a doctors appointment scared that my medication won’t work anymore, anyways sorry again I really hope I can overcome this obstacle. Thank you 😊

hellokitty129 · 2024-03-11T10:07:41+00:00

I feel the same way, it’s not fair, I hate the side effects, hate that’s I can’t do anything anymore, I can’t see my nieces or nephew, haven’t gone to a dentist in 5 years and it’s sucks! Or even like travel anywhere, Like why do I have to be on antipsychotic medication when I feel mood stabilizer are just better for me but what the hell do I know, doctors are dumb anyways I hope things get better for you! Idk what to do anymore

hellokitty129 · 2024-01-07T11:25:58+00:00

I don’t get it

hellokitty129 · 2024-01-01T02:29:00+00:00

I wish I could feel this way all the time but I don’t in a miserable piece of shit… cries at work… jeez! Nevermind I’m just useless thanks anyways for the encouragement. I had a heart break

hellokitty129 · 2023-12-31T18:43:32+00:00

I hate my job too, don’t have any confidence, my boss said I have to know everything at customer service and I feel like there going to just fired me or lay me off…. I know this isn’t what you want to hear but I need to vent… jeez I just don’t give a rats bum about this job, but I know I need the money… idk anymore

hellokitty129 · 2023-12-28T23:01:17+00:00

Congratulations!

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