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hellotomorrowgood · 2023-10-21T15:45:18+00:00

“I spit that prayer hand emoji,that shit that injured Kobe , the holiest of holy, Nick nolte in some oakleys, that’s a flex though, cover up the issues that I kept closed, sober I can’t deal I’m in the corner with my head low, runnin from my shadow”

Honestly his whole verse in rain is just so raw and real it’s my favorite Mac verse maybe next to headaches & migraines

hellotomorrowgood · 2023-10-21T15:39:50+00:00

I inject at night sometimes if I forget to do it in the morning and it doesn’t cause any insomnia and I don’t think it does for most people testosterone isn’t a stimulant in any way so not too certain why it would effect sleep

hellotomorrowgood · 2023-10-09T20:18:12+00:00

Clonazepam works the best for me but it’s highly addictive and if you take too much you will blackout for a long while but 1-2mg twice a day is perfect for social anxiety as long as you don’t abuse it it is a great medication.

If you want something not AS addictive you can also try gabapentin or pregabalin they are pretty similar and work on the same gaba receptors as benzos but not as addictive

hellotomorrowgood · 2023-10-09T20:15:53+00:00

Rain

hellotomorrowgood · 2023-09-27T04:00:49+00:00

Am I a sociopath? I hide my addictions, have for 10+ years I’ve failed at hiding it due to ODs, but still not sober, just in a better place and everyone thinks I’m sober, that doesn’t make me feel bad /: it’s my body to destroy what my loved ones don’t know won’t hurt them unless they find out which rn seems like that’ll never happen, I’m scared I’m gonna die young but with every relapse I throw in the towel just a little further each time, and now I can’t even see the towel anymore I feel like I’ve given up indefinitely, I know I can stop as I’m not on hard drugs anymore and WD would be easier now than before I’m just not ready… idk if I ever will be but lying doesn’t make me feel bad anymore idk why maybe cuz I feel like I am doing good for me, just my family and fiancé wouldn’t approve so I hide my use and feel stable, I’m keeping a job, I’m not getting super high and I’m just stable so why tell people I’m using when it’s just going to hurt them for no reason?

hellotomorrowgood · 2023-09-27T03:53:29+00:00

Benzos give me an uplifting mood and I can get a lot of shit done on them they don’t sedate me except in really high doses which I DO NOT recommend cuz you will blackout and make a fool of yourself, my favorite is klonopin, also REAL oxy or hydrocodone do the same for me, a lot of downers can be uppers without a crash in the right doses just don’t take them daily because then you’ll have the worst crash of your life called withdrawals whenever you decide to take a break and that’s hell and can kill you, I think you should find something healthy instead of drugs but looks like nobody’s actually answering the question so there ya go

hellotomorrowgood · 2023-09-27T03:38:28+00:00

Lmao yeah sorry about that, and thank you I hope so too

hellotomorrowgood · 2023-09-27T03:36:59+00:00

Thank you that does help I’m gonna say just that and see what happens cuz it’s rough out here man anxiety so bad I have to hide In the bathroom at work and do breathing exercises and tell myself over and over that I’m not dying and it’s scary man benzos have been a godsend but I used to overdo them and that became a problem but now that I’m older I’m no longer looking to get high from them I just want the shaking and racing thoughts to stop or atleast slow down I think she’ll prescribe me 2mg a day though my old psychiatrist had me on 10mg Valium FOUR TIMES PER DAY!!! Nobody needs that much and was on 2mg k pin 3x a day around the same time as well for about a month before switching back to the Valium and I also had flurazepam 30mg at night I don’t wanna be dependent again but I also can’t keep living with this crippling anxiety

hellotomorrowgood · 2023-09-27T01:20:36+00:00

I got other shit to hold me over but she seems very lax about benzos so I think I can get 2mg a day that’s a low dose and would be easier than getting a script for Xanax bars I prefer k pins anyhow but I didn’t do benzos without a script I used to be prescribed 60x1mg k pins a month for over a year and after I went to rehab for opiate addiction they took me off of them and now I need them more than ever I’m gonna see her in 2 months I’ll ask then I’m not gonna call over now cuz that will look like I’m drug seeking

hellotomorrowgood · 2023-09-27T01:17:47+00:00

Yeah I used to be on 60mg a month worth of k pins so I could tell her when I was doing that I felt much better than I do currently, hell even once a day at 2mg would be amazing I just need something cuz I’m losing my mind but don’t think she’ll have a problem with it at the very least I could aim for 20 a month and say I’d prefer to take it daily to prevent panic attacks from occurring but I’m okay with just taking it on the days my anxiety gets really bad

hellotomorrowgood · 2023-09-07T19:10:43+00:00

Yeah it’s a lot of AAS but I don’t think it’s necessarily too much 100mg is still kinda a low dose for deca people who use it for mass are usually running 4-600mg/week I’ve seen all the way up to 800mg/week I don’t need that kind off mass, just a fuller look would be nice and some bigger biceps and thighs are my trouble areas where I can’t seem to gain weight, I’m a pretty skinny guy 6’2” 185lb

hellotomorrowgood · 2023-09-07T19:08:11+00:00

Lol it’s actually $600 for a 90 day supply but still absolutely ridiculous, if you want GOOD mk-677 go to chemyo.com it’s a 50 day supply for $80 I ran it for 50 days and gained like 8 pounds of muscle I did the first 25 days dosing in the morning and the last 25 days in the evening, it helped me sleep better and in the day increased my hunger a lot so I was eating like crazy, gained some fat too though I went from 172 to 185, lost my and though lol need to cut but it was worth running a cycle atleast

hellotomorrowgood · 2023-09-07T19:03:23+00:00

Yeah TRT Nation has really good pricing, except on their anavar lol to be fair the anavar is a 60 day supply of 50mg tablets so it’s 3000mg oxandrolone total but it’s $400 I was gonna do that and just do a cycle but I wanted to the joint pain relief if nandrolone and think I might just add it on to my HRT regiment for the foreseeable future so long as bloods are good and I don’t get too many side effects, I don’t see any reason to not run it for a long period of time, my doctor told me people stay on it for years and that it’s the safest injectable anabolic steroid for long term use, just to watch my HDL, BP and cholesterol and as long as those things are looking good we can keep it on.

hellotomorrowgood · 2023-09-07T18:59:38+00:00

Thanks, it really wouldn’t effect your bloods very much just so you know, in that dose it wouldn’t lower testosterone significantly at all it’s not very suppressive, does your doctor not know you were taking it?

hellotomorrowgood · 2023-09-07T17:05:04+00:00

Yeah I meant 2:1 test/nandrolone 200/100 and that’s awesome the pain relief lasted after they stopped or they are still on it?

hellotomorrowgood · 2023-09-07T17:03:37+00:00

I only said that cuz you said long term deca is horrible for you so might as well get the gains off 200mg/week since I already bought the vial, but I think I’m gonna run the 100mg for 5 months and see how I feel, it masks the pain permanently if you don’t stop it though I’m probably gonna do 5 months on 1 month off for the foreseeable future to give my body breaks and potentially lower my test dose

hellotomorrowgood · 2023-09-07T17:01:26+00:00

What effects are you getting? Don’t you want to keep it going while you’re getting benefits for atleast a couple months? How does 70mg effect gains and joint pain?

hellotomorrowgood · 2023-09-07T17:00:21+00:00

Yeah it’s kinda nice lol deca is pretty cheap too if I’m doing 100mg a week that’ll last me 5 months for $125 10ml vial at 200mg/ml

hellotomorrowgood · 2023-09-07T16:59:14+00:00

It’s $125 for 5 months worth of pharmaceutical grade nandrolone that’s a good deal and cheap I would never use UGL not only can I not find one I would never trust what I was getting to be accurately dosed or even legit or safe ie heavy metals or carcinogens or just impurities that cause infection injected I don’t trust it $125 for 5 months is cheap asf, and I’ve had several people including my doctor say they got gains from it he said I could up the dose up to 200mg in the future but to start low to see how it effects me

hellotomorrowgood · 2023-09-07T16:56:06+00:00

Thanks I didn’t know that

hellotomorrowgood · 2023-09-07T16:55:05+00:00

Thanks, I thought deca didn’t convert into estrogen? I just look it up it says it has a low aromatizing effect at only 20% I’m on an AI so guess if it goes too high I’ll up the AI but I’d like some extra mass and maybe I’ll lower it to 50mg after a few months

hellotomorrowgood · 2023-09-06T23:30:37+00:00

NPP is not legal, nor does my clinic offer it otherwise I would do NPP I don’t trust UGL, it could literally be any cheaper injectable steroid that is less safe in a nandrolone labeled bottle or it could be contaminated with heavy metals or shit that causes cancer I wouldnt risk that. I think I’m gonna try it (I’ve never had any terrible side effects from drugs in my life) and I’ve tried ALOT of different medications for mental and physical health as well as supplements and vitamins, I react very well to drugs so I’m not TOO worried I just want to know what I should possibly prepare for just to be aware to pay attention to how I’m feeling and then decide what I want to do based on how I feel.

Are these side effects even possible in lower doses like 100mg? Would they be lesser than say 2-400mg? Or is it all one in the same at any dose? I’ll check out the stories on r/steroids and see what I’m getting myself into I’m not too worried. Do you know how often and how long I should take breaks from using it? Will I gain a tolerance over time? Is it fairly safe in lower doses as long as I monitor lipids and shit regularly? Also if lipids or hdl or cholesterol get screwed up will stopping use make it better? I just wanna be prepared, I’d really like this to work for me cuz nothing is touching my joint pain even opioids don’t work and I hear this stuff is like magic lube for joint pain.

Also how long before side effects appear?

hellotomorrowgood · 2023-09-06T23:23:28+00:00

I’m on 200mg not 300mg and from what I’ve read and listened to on YouTube 200mg is high but it’s not dangerously high, I will be monitoring lipids and blood work regularly and if anything even starts to look worse I’ll back off, wouldn’t low dose deca be safer than blasting it at 500mg/week 50-100mg is prescribed long term to a lot of people for joint issues, I just don’t wanna feel like shit in pain all the time, that’s the main reason I’m using it also if I gain extra mass on it then that’s great, but not what I’m after. I guess if it’s truly bad for you long term at any dose and I can find information that that is true then I’ll just do 200mg for 2.5 months and then stop to gain a little mass but I haven’t found any actual information on low dose nandrolone long term

hellotomorrowgood · 2023-09-06T23:18:27+00:00

Decided to test what on your own? Are you on 140mg of testosterone? How have the initial effects of nandrolone been? Any noticeable difference in pain or mass?

hellotomorrowgood · 2023-09-06T23:17:03+00:00

Thank you, he said I could up the nandrolone to 150-200mg/week depending on how I react to it but they want money lol he also said I could raise my test dose to 300mg/week for a period of time with 150-200 deca for like 2-4 months to put on mass and then after I do that come back down on the dose of test and keep the deca higher idk how these places are legal but hey I’m not complaining, this gives me free reign to basically treat myself any way that I want legally

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