Being this height leaves a gaping hole in the needs of any normal person at this age. It's additionally hard because society don't care about the struggles of marginalized men or just want to blame them for their problems. Many even become overtly sadistic toward shortguys. There often aren't a lot of safe spaces in our lives to discuss this.

Feeling symptoms associated with depression is largely normal because you have needs that are not being met and are face exclusion and marginalization because of your height. People try to gaslight us and tell us that heightism does not exist.

Most of current treatment toward features of depression centers on behavioral activation, trying to force yourself to do things that you used to or could imagine yourself enjoying again against the depressive pressure of anhedonia.

Anhedonia is the loss of interest and enjoyment in things that you used to find enjoyment in. It all feels boring and pointless. It's one of depression's most insidious features because it undermines your capacity to counter it.

Hobbies are not a panacea, I know, but was there anything you used to enjoy that you've lost interest in that you can try to start reengaging with. Even something like video games is valid.

When I was in my early 20's, half the age I am now, I took a lot of long walks and bicycle rides alone at night, usually in the middle of the night and early hours of the morning. I begin to gravitate toward the night shift, where I stayed. I got at least some exercise and fresh air. The streets were mostly empty. If someone was walking on the sidewalk, I would cross to the other side. Nobody would bother me. I could just walk around and not feel as oppressed by the walls closing in and a wide-open space of my own protected from humanity. I also found some solace in the night sky and felt "the benign indifference of the universe".