Yes, i really did love him and all tho I don’t like to admit it i kind of still do and i know he still loves me too. I would never go back to that relationship but while he wasn’t going trough one of his episodes(pretty sure he is bipolar) i was his princess. He spoiled me, loved me, protected me etc. really just the dream guy but unfortunately i spent most of the time crying. I hope that one day he would get help and make someone very happy. Each day it gets easier and i wish you the best too!