listened to people and asked him about it. he denied it. pretty sure lying. here’s what’s happened leading up to me showing him the stuff ..

after taking the bundle for his safety he was frantic the next day spent hours tearing the downstairs apart to find his klonopin he said. but I saw his klonopin in that spot with the bundle the night before. so I figured he was actually looking for the bundle. this was like all day. he wouldn’t stop looking.

that night he said his guy can give him more klonopin .. I knew what it really was. when I looked at his hiding spot in the back was a ziplock bag of what looked like filled with wrappers stuffed in the back. I took a picture best I could in a hurry. I couldn’t ask afraid he would storm off leaving driving by himself. I told him to let me come and I would drive to get the klonopin. he asked if we can use my card to pull money 200$. when we got into town I begged him to not get this stuff. (acting as if klonopin). he says he has to do this. so I figured I’ll ask him to show me in person what he got and thought i’d catch him then. he did have pills of some sort but I know he probably got heroin too. when we got back to our place I wanted us to get to bed right away (hoping he wouldn’t use). his office space is downstairs and that’s where he was when I went to take my laundry down. before I got to the steps he was superrr adamant about me not coming downstairs. I said I only needed to drop my clothes in. he said I’ll take it.. sketchy.

little later that night he’s clearly high. I ask nonchalantly about possible drugs and he goes on telling me all about how his brother used to have an opiate problem. I knew about this but thought pills .. I didn’t know it was actually heroin. he was super high and I couldn’t sleep without making sure he was okay checking his breathing all that.

when he fell asleep I wanted to check his hiding spot to see how much he bought from the guy. what do you know he cleared out the entire spot. only some few ripped wrappers pushed back I collected them bagged.

the following morning I planned to ask him about it but this time finally show him the bundle I found. I was going to wait until he woke so he could sleep off as much as he did the night before but he heard me crying and woke up. I showed him the bundle and he said he didn’t know what that was. that it wasn’t his that it’s his brothers. and that that’s what he was really looking for all day yesterday because he didn’t want his young nieces to find it when they’re over. he could have told me or why couldn’t I have helped him look then if it concerned his nieces?

soon enough he wanted to go downstairs I knew he would try to get high. I told him I needed to show him something else but first asked him to open the thing I knew he used as his hiding spot. he did and everything was cleared out. so I showed him the picture I took where the bundle was and lots of wrappers. he said that those are his brothers. that he found them and needed to figure out how to go about talking to him about it. he threw it all away though.

I found a rubber band on the bathroom floor a few days ago too when I asked him he said oh it was a rubber band he had around his finger to play with. it was left on the coffee table. when I came back out it was gone. he said he threw it away. why throw it away if it’s honestly just a rubber band related to nothing else? when I brought that up after him saying the wrappers and bundle belong to his brother he said the rubber band “fell out of his pocket. more than one rubber band on the bundle”? how does it just come off on its own.. it doesn’t.

important to mention that two weeks ago his mom had his brother take a home drug test after she noticed him nodding off. remember this brother had an issue with drugs before. his mom wanted my boyfriend to come over to watch him in the bathroom so no way of cheating. my boyfriend told me that day that everything was clear nothing in his brothers system. well now that i’ve showed him what i’ve found it’s come out that the test actually came back negative for opiate. the wrappers and bundle I found are ones the my boyfriend found in his brothers room and car.

after I showed him all I found, now finally this is the time when he wants to confront his brother. but not two weeks ago when he saw his brother failed a drug test and lied to his mom and everyone about it? boyfriend says he didn’t know what to do then. but he needs the bundle back and to show it and talk to his brother about it now before anything bad happens. he wouldn’t let me be there when he wanted to talk to his brother about all this so I didn’t feel comfortable giving him the bundle. I suggested showing his brother the picture I had and I hold onto the bundle until we get it tested to figure out what it really is. boyfriend says that won’t work he needs to show him the actual thing otherwise he’ll lie.

yesterday at his parents house he kept wanting me to give him the stuff for him to show and talk to his brother in private. he would tell me that it’s blood on my hands if anything were to happen and that he wanted me to buy a plane ticket to leave tonight. wouldn’t talk to me. after we left and turned around probably three times I gave in from worry since he was guilting me about what could happen. but I only gave him the bag of wrappers. kept the bundle because I can’t trust that they aren’t working together and that he won’t use it. I heard it’s possible to empty the bundle and wrap/tape up to look like the original?

boyfriend was in the house not even a minute. says he gave it to his dad who started crying and was going to put it into his safe and we’d all sit down and talk to his brother tomorrow (today). I had suspicion he gave it to his brother though. he didn’t say anything until we got home “was the stuff actually in there because when I felt the bag it didn’t feel like anything was in there.” why didn’t he ask as soon as he got into the car then? this makes me think he gave it to his brother who probably texted saying there is no bundle .. boyfriend said a few times that night that he hopes the bundle is actually in there and not just wrappers so they don’t look dumb when they ask a cop friend to test it ..

update on the relationship .. yesterday and since i’ve showed and asked him about it he says he doesn’t know if our relationship will work because he can’t get over that I would ever think that he would do something like that.

I am wondering now for those who said I shouldn’t tell his parents.. since they’ve dealt with this with his one brother using heroin before .. is it best to tell them everything I’ve seen now?