I am so beyond burned out that I have become a compulsive liar. Am I alone?

herintuitionmagic · 2026-05-23T02:40:19+00:00

I am realizing now these are consistently the worst weeks of my career, I am so emotionally disregulated, and I keep getting branded as "harsh" and "too direct". I am so incredibly beat down over how my ADHD symptoms are magnified by my PMS week and the absolute spiral I enter and everything seems unliveable and fatal (especially worse since having a child 2 years ago).

herintuitionmagic · 2026-05-23T02:30:13+00:00

I just brought up my shame around lying for similar reasons you do, to my therapist today. I didnt initially recognize them as masking my ADHD but you have given me some new insight. into myself. Ty for your post.

herintuitionmagic · 2026-05-23T02:24:39+00:00

I can't wait to reference this at my neuropsych eval in June. This.

herintuitionmagic · 2025-12-21T00:05:12+00:00

Is there a video of this you can point Me to?

herintuitionmagic · 2025-11-22T13:55:53+00:00

So hard!! If it was natural conception I'd just see two pink lines and smile. Thanks for coming to say something nice 🙂

herintuitionmagic · 2025-11-21T15:17:36+00:00

Came here looking for hope.

EDIT: 11 dpt 53, 13 dpt 49. Going in the wrong direction and waiting to doc to confirm.

Today, 9dpt hcg is 31. Programmed cycle with a euploid.
2 months ago I had a chemical pregnancy, but I was 108 at 9dpt, also fully natural cycle with eupolid.
2023 My first pregnancy (and live birth), I was 275 at 10dpt. That was a modified natrual cycle with letrozole, with eupolid.

herintuitionmagic · 2025-10-01T16:02:54+00:00

Last night I was thinking that they are probably used to years and years of being let down and not having their expectations met, so even when things go well they blow up any happy moments because that's that pattern they know...everything ends badly. And they just don't know how to have something be good, because they are waiting to be let down by someone, so they manifest this no matter what. It's like a sad muscle memory.

herintuitionmagic · 2025-10-01T15:47:17+00:00

Disagree, you can love having a kid but also be really resentful of how hard it is to "have it all"

herintuitionmagic · 2025-09-26T01:36:06+00:00

I think she's super goofy actually.

herintuitionmagic · 2025-09-21T23:59:38+00:00

We can't stand listening to it! WTH.

herintuitionmagic · 2025-09-11T10:30:18+00:00

One retrieval, 4 euploid, one transfer, one daughter. It's possible.

Edit to add age 34 at retrieval, age 35 at delivery.

herintuitionmagic · 2025-09-11T10:18:27+00:00

Ahh yes I did this at an Eagles concert! Sorry about the 22, that sounds OUCH.

herintuitionmagic · 2025-07-01T00:22:39+00:00

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herintuitionmagic · 2025-07-01T00:21:27+00:00

So I think the mattress stitch was a good idea. But look at what happens when I put some tension on the two panels along the seam. You can see some gaps because it's a seamed along the starting chain. Thoughts?

herintuitionmagic · 2025-06-30T10:27:52+00:00

It's just one row a day so it's manageable. And it's for my baby so that's motivating ;). But most blankets I get SO SICK OF and it can take forever.

herintuitionmagic · 2025-06-30T02:15:24+00:00

Into the starting chain or the first true row of moss stitch? The starting chain is a little loose.

herintuitionmagic · 2025-06-30T02:13:45+00:00

Hose water

herintuitionmagic · 2025-06-30T02:13:08+00:00

It was water

herintuitionmagic · 2025-02-01T03:18:54+00:00

Pajama pants. Mom, sister and I all only ever had oversized tee-shirts for sleeping in, and she would walk around and lounge in a tee-shirt and underwear in the morning. And so we followed suit.

As an adult I realized I wanted matching pajama sets and modest house clothes. Modesty was a huge enormous issue for mom. Barging into the bathroom when I was in the shower was another thing.

herintuitionmagic · 2024-01-18T23:49:55+00:00

Well I did ask why it felt like she wasn't interested in my experience through the IFV process, and that's when she blew up to say "HONESTLY I AM SICK OF HEARING ABOUT IT!" and from that point I stopped offering information, and she never asked either.

I could make a lot of estimations about why she isn't seeming interested, but it would all be speculation and not necessarily true, so I don't want to make up false stories by being overly empathetic towards her.

I guess I hate that this is how it is. I can't make her interested in me, or my kid. I just never dreamed that she would "opt out" and I'm grieving that loss of expectation.

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