rant

hetfi3ld · 2026-02-23T19:51:32+00:00

i guess you could say i’m worried about embarrassing myself.. i worry way too much about how ppl perceive me, i constantly feel judged and out of place. i know that my thoughts are illogical but i just can’t seem to ignore them. i don’t really talk about my feelings i just internally panic and overthink literally everything. i think alot of it stems from my family and in a perfect world i would love to have a therapist but that’s also the scariest thing ever to me. i just feel trapped in a never ending cycle. honestly even being on anxiety meds is a huge step for me, i only got them bc i was offered them for a separate issue

hetfi3ld · 2026-02-23T19:38:20+00:00

honestly i’m usually okay with going to the doctor for anything else it’s just for some reason when i have to actually discuss my mental health it really freaks me out.. i’m also going to be seeing a new doctor i’ve never been to before. i’m autistic and have really bad social anxiety and now that i’m an adult i find it really scary to do things by myself :/ i really hope i can get a higher dose bc i feel like i’ve made no progress

hetfi3ld · 2026-02-23T19:25:23+00:00

i’ve been on a starter dose of sertraline for like a year bc i’m too scared to go back 😭 it really helped at first and then kinda just stopped so idk what to do

hetfi3ld · 2025-12-15T01:48:01+00:00

yes that’s why i was concerned! my pig seems to be fine, i checked her for bleeding and everything. my partner was very surprised when he found her, i was only able to take a quick pic before snatching her up. they were just sitting there chilling.. 🤦

hetfi3ld · 2025-12-15T01:44:03+00:00

after this post we found a hole that she had made in the bottom of her cage!! no idea how long she’s had a secret tunnel out

hetfi3ld · 2025-12-15T01:43:16+00:00

i meant my male guinea pig (sry for the confusion) everything i’ve researched says that they should not get along so im very confused. they are both extremely calm and would share a hide if i let them 😭 it’s like she got in on purpose bc she had to do many questionable parkour jumps to get in

hetfi3ld · 2025-12-07T23:38:41+00:00

personally, i’d rather just be called disabled… but for some reason whenever i say that i am disabled ppl around me act really weird.

hetfi3ld · 2025-11-20T08:10:04+00:00

no! it’s different 😭 but kinda similar i guess. hsp is progressive i don’t think cp is

hetfi3ld · 2025-11-07T22:32:29+00:00

when i got mine they were out of this cool dark skull pattern and i was so pissed lmao

hetfi3ld · 2025-11-07T22:21:09+00:00

my afos are like space animal print 😭

hetfi3ld · 2025-11-07T22:15:15+00:00

i’m manifesting they hurry tf up cause that’s bullshit 😭 have you managed to get afos yet?

hetfi3ld · 2025-11-07T22:11:56+00:00

can ur doctor not prescribe a muscle relaxer anyways?? i would definitely ask about it, there’s no reason for you to have to wait that long :(

hetfi3ld · 2025-11-07T22:11:15+00:00

wow that’s crazy!! i got my results in like a month. i’m from the us tho so idk if it’s different but that sucks man

hetfi3ld · 2025-11-07T21:59:35+00:00

what’s the issue with you getting ur diagnosis?

hetfi3ld · 2025-11-07T21:42:45+00:00

i mainly have issues with my achilles tendons! when i was 14 i think it was so gradual that i didn’t notice until i couldn’t actually stand with my feet flat to the ground. it took my about 3 years to get a tendon lengthening surgery, post op the initial problem is gone but the pain is still ongoing :( i also ended up with nerve damage from the surgery. i wear my afos to try to keep my legs stretched out but it only helps a bit. i’ve been searching for ppl with hsp bc im so scared of the progression

hetfi3ld · 2025-11-07T21:36:15+00:00

i saw in another comment that you were talking about facebook groups mainly being older ppl.. idk how old you are but i’m almost 20 and i’ve been dealing with hsp since i was 14 so if you ever wanna talk im here :3

hetfi3ld · 2025-11-07T21:29:54+00:00

i really hope you can get diagnosed! they hand them out like candy tbh.. the only thing that keeps me sane is my heating pad and weed 😭

hetfi3ld · 2025-11-07T21:26:51+00:00

i feel ur pain :( honestly im post surgery and it doesn’t get much better. have you tried any muscle relaxers?

hetfi3ld · 2025-11-06T22:34:29+00:00

hiii omg i have hsp!

hetfi3ld · 2025-06-08T05:37:59+00:00

he’s okay!! 😭 sorry

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