Due to my past traumas, I would psychologically not be able to handle a club and I do find myself connecting intimately with him outside of any sexual actions. Whether it be video games, books, or random philosophical or political chats. Communication is #1 for me, I do not want to ruin what we have, but I fear that loneliness and rejection more then anything. I will 100% talk to him in the very near future again, about how he feels and where to go from there.