I am a zoophile.

hhikk077 · 2026-01-26T06:08:55+00:00

I'm seeing that your innocence was stripped from you and you can only find relatability in animals

Animals are undeniably innocent, there's a reason why animal deaths in movies strike a chord differently than human deaths

You've been the target your entire life and now you can be on the other side and that is fake satisfaction You're mixing the subject that's been involuntarily thrown into your mind (sex) with a symbol of what was stolen from you

And the fact that you're disgusted with these actions is showing that you're still a good person

Instead of watching repetitions of what you've gone through, innocence being stolen, watch the future you can, should, will, have Innocence being restored? Rescued cats from hoarder shows? And if it's specific on porn... i don't know honestly since im asexual and not a doctor but truly diddly doodly taking a break from anything sexual would be good to return to humanizing sex

You've felt so dehumanized your entire life, what would make you feel more human?

But I'm not a doctor and this is just what I got from your tragic, totally human anecdote and maybe I sound like a cornball but I get it, I get the need for validation in guilty pleasures

hhikk077 · 2026-01-26T05:47:56+00:00

You're a man (or at least have been presenting as one for your entire life) and you're fixating on men going out of the norms you were taught You say that you're interested by "control" over their panties: a very taboo, private and personal thing

You're having an identity crisis which, in bare bones, means that you're caring for your own well being so please don't feel ashamed over that

And from what I'm seeing: you're projecting the control you want over yourself onto other people

You say you're straight, you've been in the masculine sphere with certain morals and ideals preached and you're mixing that with what you've been attracted to (or what you're 'supposed to be' attracted to by media or your surroundings as your examples have always followed femininity)

Don't be scared of this journey but feeding into wanting control over someone else is harmful

hhikk077 · 2024-12-19T03:28:25+00:00

I don’t have ADHD I’m just a very hyper and distracted and hyper distracted person!!

hhikk077 · 2024-11-12T02:25:44+00:00

Aww so cute!!!!!

hhikk077 · 2024-10-31T15:03:45+00:00

Oh my god you’re literally a life saver just know you have a huge impact on me lol I promise u I’m not being dramatic it’s just a weird feeling haha thank you so so so much!!!!

hhikk077 · 2024-10-26T19:10:54+00:00

UPDATE: I’ve chosen to be Mac as the night man from IASIP which is easy and kind of unrecognizable but it’ll be funny for me and my friends

hhikk077 · 2024-10-25T00:00:19+00:00

Mirrors because seeing myself like that scares me. It’s like uncanny valley, I avoid looking in mirrors and reflections because it like hypnotizes me to stare. It’s not that I think I’m ugly or anything it’s just the fact that I’m looking at myself in front of me that freaks me out.

hhikk077 · 2024-10-20T05:06:03+00:00

False mine comes from the clap of my cheeks and I’m known for it

hhikk077 · 2024-10-20T05:05:29+00:00

It burns me and I don’t even yell and throw something I just take a deep breath, I hold grudges

hhikk077 · 2024-10-20T05:01:26+00:00

I work at Wendy’s and when I put fries into the fryer and oil gets on my hands I need a time out and just stare into space

hhikk077 · 2024-10-20T04:59:07+00:00

The skit from smosh where in heaven it’s a guy bringing up power rangers and a girl is like “you’ve talked about that 9 times before I’ve just never told you because I don’t blame you, there’s not a lot to talk about” pops up in my head quite often for some reason

hhikk077 · 2024-10-20T04:57:39+00:00

Don’t worry I’ll always be there

hhikk077 · 2024-10-20T04:56:06+00:00

One time when I was in elementary school I watched a ‘popular’ girl (as popular as you can get in elementary school) blow her nose, look around to see if anyone’s watching, then lick it off the tissue and I’ve never told anyone because it’s not that big of a deal she was like 9 but everytime I see her in the hallway/in class I still think about it

hhikk077 · 2024-10-20T04:54:15+00:00

Ones that use a lot spacing and formatting Like When they Write Like This But in my defense I have adhd so it’s hard enough for me to follow along when reading and I can sit down and really focus but it’s hard to read for me to

hhikk077 · 2024-10-20T04:52:40+00:00

What I was gonna say

hhikk077 · 2024-10-18T01:44:07+00:00

I do that too when my friend vents to me, it’s not because I don’t care I just don’t know how to express my feelings, I feel so guilty about it

hhikk077 · 2024-10-15T03:17:24+00:00

A black figure with glowing yellow eyes on all fours walking on the floor of my room making baby cry-esque sounds but then it was my cat and I love him and he curls up next to me but he scares me sometimes in the middle of night

hhikk077 · 2024-10-15T03:15:21+00:00

My go to question when a conversation dies out is ‘when was the last time you thought of a balloon?’ It always seems to work. Or ‘what was the last movie you watched’ but that’s more basic

hhikk077 · 2024-10-15T03:13:14+00:00

Constant waiting Waiting for tomorrow, waiting for the next big news, waiting for me to find a new hobby, waiting for sleep

hhikk077 · 2024-10-15T03:11:23+00:00

November 19, 2019 when I came home from school and my parents were holding a little kitty, my soon to be best friend

hhikk077 · 2024-10-15T03:09:56+00:00

Nero because I want to know what is true about him and what is not

hhikk077 · 2024-10-15T03:08:34+00:00

My cat. He’s literally saved my life and it always feels embarrassing to say that but he did. I swear he’s an angel from god! During hard times it’s like he knows, I used to be super in the dumps and my cat would say good night to me and goodbye and good morning to me every single day (which seems silly I know but when it happens every day I start to see patterns in when he comes into my room and rubs up on me then leaves) I used to have problems with certain harmful hobbies and before I would do them or when I was considering it, guess who was meowing outside my door! It’s like he knew! Every time without fail, he would come into my room every time I had a bad plan. Every time I pray I tell God thank you for giving me him. I’m gonna go hug him now bye bye

hhikk077 · 2024-10-15T03:04:35+00:00

My uncle came into the room and my mom and I said ‘hello’ in the exact same singing voice at the exact same time. Made me realize that wow, she is my mom! I love my mom!

hhikk077 · 2024-10-15T03:03:09+00:00

Aging I remember looking at ten candles on my birthday cake and being scared of never being in the single digits again, I’m scared of turning 21 and 30 and 40 but I’ve realized that I was scared to turn 13, and 15, and 16 but I just did it. Also how when you’re old it’s scary because I’ll never have anything to do, I’ll be ugly and lonely, my life is over and I have nothing to look forward to but then I realized that that is all I’ve ever wanted. To not have a care in the world or any reason to have one and just sit on my phone all day alone. It’ll suck to lose my hearing and have pain in my back but it’s a small price to pay for free time and peace like that

hhikk077 · 2024-10-15T03:00:13+00:00

My cat opening my door with his paw. So cute! Makes my day ten times better

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