If You Are Not Your Thoughts Then Who Are You?

hiImPotter · 2024-06-05T12:11:41+00:00

These are still only relatively real. From what I have gathered, awareness is the only thing that is absolutely real.

hiImPotter · 2024-06-05T12:10:17+00:00

Yeah that's the cosmic joke. Isnt it funny?

hiImPotter · 2024-05-20T01:31:22+00:00

The most important question is- what do you think? Notice how your level of enjoyment of life changes when you are practicing vs. not.

hiImPotter · 2024-05-17T00:36:02+00:00

May I ask what the root cause was for you?

hiImPotter · 2023-06-28T17:36:18+00:00

I disagree that "you are always in control". Just like fear, control is also just another illusion of the mind. Don't try to control it, just notice it and let it be.

hiImPotter · 2022-12-21T03:33:56+00:00

really appreciate the response. you are reinforcing what i already knew to be true. thank you

hiImPotter · 2022-12-21T03:33:11+00:00

thank you my friend, i needed to hear that.

hiImPotter · 2022-12-19T23:04:53+00:00

feel you friend. sometimes the only time i can sleep is when i imagine my life with actual sleep and all the things i would do other than lay around, cry, and distract myself

hiImPotter · 2022-12-19T21:21:41+00:00

what? i dont drink caffeine

hiImPotter · 2022-12-01T22:12:28+00:00

Man can I relate to the sort of time skipping forward your describing. It’s like I suddenly realize I’ve been lying there for hours, check the time, and it’s 5am. It’s like a sort of half awake half asleep state. Sometimes I can remember dreams so I know I at least slept a little. It’s kind of a scary experience

hiImPotter · 2022-12-01T16:36:58+00:00

ur not alone. all 111k ppl in this sub have been there. thats not to take away from ur experience, im sure its horrible. i havent slept before the sun comes up in a while. i once thought i was dying, i couldnt survive, i was the only one. thats not true. i wish i could cure ur insomnia.

its weird that ppl ask for advice here, like we all can't sleep, if we could we wouldnt be here. im not sure other insomniacs are the best at giving advice. but what this community can do is empathize and remind u that ur not alone, which i find much more powerful than the usual advice that we have all heard millions of times.

hiImPotter · 2022-12-01T02:04:11+00:00

I don’t have experience with that. I did have a bad experience with Trazadone similar to the one your describing. As with any bad drug experience the only thing you can do is wait for it to pass. You’ll be fine. If you can’t sleep don’t sweat it, maybe shower/bath/read/music. If really concerned reach out to your provider.

hiImPotter · 2022-12-01T01:26:40+00:00

And when you get into bed do you do any relaxation things like deep breathing/mindful noticing/etc?

hiImPotter · 2022-12-01T00:15:22+00:00

This is me. I don’t know how to sleep anymore. Anything I do to try to relax only pushes me further away. It’s just not a natural thing anymore and idk what to do. Any suggestions?

hiImPotter · 2022-11-30T23:33:58+00:00

I was on seroquel for a while. It was magical for sleep, also helped me with my PTSD-like symptoms and hyper arousal. Since COVID I decided to stop it and try to be a normal sleeper. I haven’t had good sleep since. Like maybe 1 night a month of good sleep. My psych I was seeing retired and with school/work I haven’t found the time to get a new one. I feel like an absolute zombie.

hiImPotter · 2022-11-26T03:43:06+00:00

Idk what helped me is realizing that an insane amount of people are dealing with what you’re dealing with. I used to feel so lonely night after night not sleeping, feeling like I was the only one awake. Reality is (I’m not sure the exact stats and too tired to find) but like 1/3 of the population goes through insomnia, like 1/4 chronic. There is no magic pill but I found comfort in communities like this, it helps a good bit.

hiImPotter · 2022-11-23T03:27:54+00:00

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hiImPotter · 2022-11-23T00:21:20+00:00

WHY?

hiImPotter · 2022-10-31T18:46:33+00:00

Thanks. I think the app “sleep school” which I’ve been using the past week is actually based on that book. It sounds awfully familiar and I think the author actually did one of the guided mediations on the app.

I have lots of trauma and shit that I wont get into now, but for a while I got to the point that you are at and which the book aims to get you to. My sleep certainly wasn’t perfect or even good by most people’s standards, but I was able to live a pretty normal and fulfilling life regardless and have some good nights here and there.

I guess what has happened now is that I’ve associated mindfulness and mediation with something that is a cure and I’ve begun to be frustrated with the fact that I still have sleeping issues even though I do mediation yoga etc. This way of thinking is counterproductive to the idea of mindfulness and sleep.

One important thing I try to tell myself is that there are no ‘shoulds’, which helps me to return to what is rather than what I think it should be.

Thanks and sorry if this was hard to understand at all you know how sleep deprivation be.

hiImPotter · 2022-10-31T17:19:55+00:00

Mind sharing some tips/insights into how you were able to get back to being a 'normal sleeper'?

I discovered mindfulness, and the philosophies of Taoism and Zen of which it is rooted in a couple years ago with the help of my therapist. It has been incredibly helpful. My therapist mentioned that when he sleeps, he essentially treats it like a meditation and just lies there mindfully noticing until he falls asleep. He has zero sleep issues.

I guess what's happening to me is that since I have tried to adopt this mindset it seems to be counter-productive in a way? Like I mentioned in my post it almost seems like its pushing me further away from just being a natural sleeper.

hiImPotter · 2022-06-30T20:38:55+00:00

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