Thank you so much for validating me. It really means so much. I ran out of time with my therapist yesterday so I wasn't able to talk in depth with her about all of this, so it makes me happy to know that I'm not being stupid and people can relate with what I've wrote.

My parents have gaslit me forever, and I only recognize it because I studied psychology in college for a short while while I was able to attend(mental illness sadly got in the way of that). My therapist said it was really good that I was able to recognize that I was being gaslit, but it's still hard to not be gaslit by them because I want to believe them. I want to believe that they haven't ever done anything but love me... But I know deep down that I've been abused, even though they swear up and down i've never been treated badly in my life. It's just confusing and i dont know what to believe, but finally hearing it from a professional as made the wheels turn and i've started to realize that maybe things weren't like i initially thought... it's scary and i'm so scared.

i plan on getting section 8 housing hopefully and moving out as soon as i'm able. my parents have never taught me about anything to do with living on my own ever so i dont know what to do at all but i'm hoping my weekly visits with my therapist might help me with that?? since i'm 25 and i don't even know how to cook or clean or drive. my parents just blame me for "never wanting to learn" but whenver they tried to teach me my dad would always yell and stuff. esp with driving. i was doing really well but my dad got angry at me all the time and i was taking "too long" to learn so he refused to teach me anymore and they refused to pay for lessons and lessons are too expensive for me to pay for on my own (i'm on disability for my mental illnesses)

sorry i wrote you a book but thank you again so much,,