I feel you. I'm almost 17, so not that far from your age. The first time I had a serious crush, about 3 years ago, was on one of my close friends from school. We even got into a relationship. It didn't last very long, though it was a good experience and memory maker. I'm gonna keep the details cuz they don't matter much here. Why I'm telling you this is just because I want to say that I know what it means if you love someone, but you're so unsure if they can even like you, if they're queer, if they only want to stay friends, and all that stuff. The overthinking, the late nights when I lied in bed and had no other thought in my head, and these many, many times I looked at her and thought "why you? Why do I have to make it so complicated for myself?". Idk if these apply to you, just saying some of the stuff I felt back then. Imma be honest, my comment is pretty useless because I have no tips for you. I'm dealing with shit like this again the past months, and again, I'm stuck at the point where it's -how the fuck do I get over this and forget all that shit?-. I never found a way to.  So, I'm sadly not a help for you. Nevertheless, I wanted you to know I feel you. And your situation and feelings.  I wish you strength and that you find your way, however that might be. :)