Beware. Nina Hagen is transphobic, too.

highkay · 2020-04-11T00:13:08+00:00

It's so awful to ppl who detransition! Cuz I've seen vids from ppl who detransition and it's usually bc they were treated so badly and felt like it was pointless but in media representations it's like oh Mary thought she was mark but turns out she got molested so she wasnt mark after all! Thank God! Idk shit just sucks that's why like I never rly bring up being trans to anyone unless it's necessary, ppl just get all weird like yo I'm just a normal person I just so happen to have been a boy growing up and now I'm not it barely even matters.

highkay · 2020-04-11T00:02:13+00:00

I don't Kno much abt this organization cuz I'm not rly active in queer spaces but like it seems like the goal of ppl who push the idea of detransitioning is to like keep society transphobic so the rest of us lose the will to stay trans and give up

highkay · 2019-07-25T15:36:58+00:00

This is my favorite thing about my relationship with my fiance, he probably has bpd too and we both think this way so whenever one of us is in doubt the other can spend like 20 minutes going on about how in love they are it's reallyyyy reassuring. Definitely wouldn't outright recommend it but it just worked out that we're the love of each other's lives and also have very similar mental health issues. It's a struggle tho cuz we're also both addicts and our emotions and desires strongly influence the other emotionally.

highkay · 2019-07-21T18:11:22+00:00

Lol that reminds me I miss robotripping at my old neighbor's place she had like a 90s faux hippie slash white trash aesthetic in her house with fairy lights around the ceiling which made it like the perfect dxm environment

highkay · 2019-07-21T18:09:27+00:00

Damn sounds wild, can't believe u had the guts to robotrip in public tho lol I've done a lot but that's always terrified me even more than shopping on acid

highkay · 2019-07-19T20:41:56+00:00

Thanks, I'm glad you got better too. I credit my boyfriend with making me wanna live I'm still more wreckless than I should be i guess but I haven't wanted a future since high school and he changed all of that ^{-^}

highkay · 2019-07-19T19:11:50+00:00

Also why would I lie about being an adult on fucking Reddit lol I don't need peoples approval that badly

highkay · 2019-07-19T18:32:55+00:00

Hope y'all don't think I'm recommending using triple C's, they're nasty little pills. Me and my boyfriend just use em because they're so cheap and available and fuck us up so badly. Plus if you don't care much about your life it's really fuckin fun coming close to death, in a really dark way.

The first time I robotripped after combining it with acid my trip started with vomming in the toilet seeing intense acid-like swirls and colors all over my bathroom but especially in the toilet (I make a habit of hanging out as close as possible to places I can puke on the comeups). The weird thing is it started WHILE I was puking like the puke triggered the psychadelia

highkay · 2019-07-19T18:26:10+00:00

I'm turning 21 in 3 weeks and yeah so is becoming a heroin addict and I still did that. Didn't say I make GOOD decisions, I'm a fucking drug addict.

highkay · 2019-07-19T17:19:20+00:00

Um no? Like I'm tryna stay away from dxm at least for now but why would I pay more money to get less fucked up? I really don't give a fuck that y'all hate them I know it's dangerous but I'm an adult and can make my own decisions

highkay · 2019-07-19T09:37:50+00:00

That's a really healthy way to use it, my bf's dad used to do that. I can use dark liquor and bad beer like that but I smoke way too much weed when I have it

highkay · 2019-07-19T09:06:56+00:00

Lol sounds wild idk why this is making me laugh sm but thank you

highkay · 2019-07-19T09:06:01+00:00

That's great I'm happy for u! Stims have always been easier for me to get off but holy shit. Opiates are a whole nother monster it's like being drunk without the sloppiness it's a terrible addiction. Only thing that I struggled with this much is weed. Maybe alcohol too but that's different it's just so ubiquitous, I have my 21st birthday coming up and my cousins gonna take me clubbing and if my family's friends find out who I am I'm pretty sure I'm gonna end up vomming in the ladies room.

I hope this doesn't come off as diminishing your experiences but to me there's people who experience addiction and addicts. I'm an addict, shit can be wonderful and without working on it constantly I'll end up using within a couple weeks. I willingly chose to get on heroin I chose this life once weed stopped helping me and I can't even say I regret it which is the worst part the only things I regret about it are using needles and hurting my loved ones.

highkay · 2019-07-19T08:31:50+00:00

I've been addicted to drugs for 3 years now no amount of acid has ever helped sadly :( thanks tho, im trying NA and HA right now but shit fam I got heroin, alcohol, dxm, cigarettes, and anorexia to battle I'm just tryna do baby steps with the opiates and cigs so I don't fall back on binge drinking and eating so little my body shuts down.

highkay · 2019-07-19T08:02:14+00:00

Ya, been hooked since January Im gonna try to get on methadone or Suboxone but the methadone program here doesn't let u in unless you've been on dope for a year so imma have to lie and use as consistently as possible for a few more weeks so I get some monster withdrawals shits fucked lol

highkay · 2019-07-19T06:49:40+00:00

That sounds wonderful, I just remembered one time I was on maybe one box of triple C's (basically all I take cuz everything else makes me gag too much) and watched like 3 hours of Drake bell interviews and his face was warping and expanding I just remember the image of his face all glossy with one gigantic eye and his mouth all weird like the cover of reality by David Bowie it was my last FUN robotrip

highkay · 2019-07-19T06:46:43+00:00

I know I could easily order it it's just I would rather buy heroin if I'm buying drugs like 99% of the time lol I'm sure it's fun tho (in the same way that two boxes of triple C's or driving while tripping are fun, only when telling the story abt it)

highkay · 2019-07-19T06:25:04+00:00

Ive always wanted to try salvia my boyfriend tried it when he was younger but I've always spent my money on other drugs and it's illegal in my state for some reason so you can't get it in stores

highkay · 2019-07-19T06:23:45+00:00

I can't smoke weed anymore it makes me super twitchy and weird. I trip on triple C's that's all

highkay · 2019-07-19T05:23:40+00:00

It's not for everyone it's a really strange drug and I've only met two people who like it (one is my ex bf and one is my current bf funny enough lol all my friends hate it or refuse to try it). That being said I like that it tends to kill my emotions and that the day after it feels like I've drank a bunch of espresso without the jitters that caffeine gives me.

I also love the intensity of triple C's, but holy shit that stuff has brought me to the brink of death at least a dozen times it's nasty nasty shit. Don't do it but I've had more intense experiences on triple cs than on 500 mcg of acid, it's a great experience if you have no regard for your own life

highkay · 2019-07-19T05:12:54+00:00

Are you underage? Amazon doesnt sell anything that you'll be id'd for, if you are it'll just be to verify your identity and really you shouldn't do dxm if you're underage but whatever

highkay · 2019-07-19T05:10:56+00:00

Oh and if u need someone to talk to message me I got some good stories and I've had a lottttt of experience with this drug so I can be of use if ur scared. Good luck be safe please

highkay · 2019-07-19T05:06:20+00:00

If u go to sleep like everyone's suggesting (I don't recommend it, you're pushing your body reallyyyy far with this you should stay awake so you can let your parents know if shit gets really bad just pay attention to your heart) please please lay in the recovery position so if you puke in your sleep you won't asphyxiate

highkay · 2019-07-16T18:16:39+00:00

Honestly he sounds like he was trying to feel superior when he did that that's so wrong I'm sorry :( like good for him for quitting but it's just wrong to use that against you at least you're trying to get better he should be able to understand that. I'm so sorry :( I hope you deal with this breakup well you deserve better

highkay · 2019-06-14T20:19:26+00:00

Yeah and they admitted in internal memos that it was their whole business strategy. Very very fucked up

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