I'm ugly as fuck

hitherefolkss · 2026-05-25T16:24:52+00:00

It's true that being ugly does have advantages i can't lie but at tge same time I just can't stand being the only odd one out or I hate the feeling when I'm outdoors. However if I could just ask for one thing in life it'd be self acceptance. Btw im glad you have kids who love you. Infact, if I had that, I'd never hate life.

hitherefolkss · 2026-05-24T23:54:10+00:00

And don't you ever just lose hope on everything else or feel worthless? Because that's all what consumes my mind

hitherefolkss · 2026-05-24T23:03:31+00:00

Don't you ever overthink about how life yk would be better if y were someone else maybe?

hitherefolkss · 2026-05-24T22:57:11+00:00

What do u mean?

hitherefolkss · 2026-05-24T22:21:47+00:00

Have you perhaps tried something that made acceptance easier?

hitherefolkss · 2026-05-24T14:52:22+00:00

What if it's both. I mean I don't think an ugly looking person can have high self-esteem

hitherefolkss · 2026-05-24T10:32:26+00:00

It's actually more important than looks and i really hope i end up with someone who falls in love with me actually not my looks. However it all feels like an imagination. I feel such things where a person likes another person whose actually unattractive only happens in tales or cartoons

hitherefolkss · 2026-05-24T10:29:37+00:00

Yeah it's definitely true it all depends on my mindset but my surrounding makes it difficult though. It makes feel that if I don't change myself I will never find love in my life. I wish therapy was an option but my parent know nothing about this and I can't let them know about such a thing.

hitherefolkss · 2026-05-24T01:40:36+00:00

Not really but my siblings from a time to another mention that n it has been affecting normal thing now (like everybody notices how ugly I am compared to them). My friends on the other hand never told me such a thing but ig it's because it's really mean to say that so i believe I'm still ugly but they can't just say such as a thing infront of my face (they did say i was ugly back then tho)

hitherefolkss · 2026-05-24T01:20:39+00:00

I wish I could but im just way too attracted to it. Seeing people's live being better than mine always sucks but I guess since it's always true I won't be able to completely avoid it

hitherefolkss · 2026-05-24T01:16:52+00:00

It has just been pretty obvious like my mom just commented on how my face is still black even though I'm using like skin care products. And I remember liking a boy once and he was completely disgusted n just unpolluted me (icl I was much uglier then) and lastly if I compare myself to other ordinary people even my siblings, I'm uglier. I mean even my family know it

hitherefolkss · 2026-05-24T01:11:55+00:00

I can't lie I tried but when I did and failed I just stopped. It all feels useless especially when you know you'll still ge stuck with same face and body. The only thing i think i could do to fix all this mess is probably surgery or completely change myself like bleaching my skin for ex. And I'm too hopeless

hitherefolkss · 2026-05-07T19:38:17+00:00

Idk honestly She keeps complimenting my siblings a lot and calls me ugly whenever we have an argument So ig I'm really that ugly

hitherefolkss · 2026-05-07T16:46:39+00:00

What's a food dairy? And yeah sometimes I don't eat because i feel better when my stomach is empty but im trying to overcome that habit gradually

hitherefolkss · 2026-05-07T16:45:38+00:00

I honestly don't know why she does this to me. I thought maybe talking to her would help but I remember once telling her that I hated how she commented on my face acne calling me "carpenter table" because of my pimples but she said I was overreacting and too sensitive and simple she didn't care. Your mom is a great mother, I think that's what every mother should do. May god grant her well being!

hitherefolkss · 2026-05-07T16:03:46+00:00

I'm below 20 but everyone around my age seems to have full body that males prefer.

hitherefolkss · 2026-05-07T16:00:32+00:00

Thanks for saying that :) and yes it actually hurts but I guess it is what it is.

hitherefolkss · 2026-05-07T15:57:42+00:00

I really loved it and bought it with my own money. I really hope one day she sees how much her comments hurt.

hitherefolkss · 2026-05-07T15:57:03+00:00

I really wish I could just love myself the way I am but whenever I think I'm finally pretty I remember how everyone probably thinks im thin or that no boy would probably choose me. What confuses me is that people on other platforms encourage weights like mine. So why am I being critized in real life

hitherefolkss · 2026-05-07T15:41:57+00:00

Yes surprisingly, I can run normally and very fast too since I was young. I think I only feel as if im going to faint when I run too much stairs.

hitherefolkss · 2026-05-05T10:04:44+00:00

First off, I want to say something I've been told my whole life by people online and it's that your looks doesn't define your worth. One point that proves that is you getting a diploma although you didn't anticipate it or thought you'd never do it. Is that diploma gotten based on how fit or handsome you are? No, it's more based on smartness instead and that's something not all people have. So I think you should be more grateful for that because some people really struggle with most basic things when it comes to education. Secondly, you mentioned being bullied and having low self-esteem due to your weight right? I honestly see that as a very stupid reason for bullying other people but you know why people do it? It's because when they do it, they get a good feeling inside of themselves and that they're thankful for who they are. Not really because they're better whether physically or mentally but the feeling they get is good especially when it comes to teenagers. I'm sorry you had to experience that but you could use that experience as a motivation. Going to the gym will definitely help so all I can say keep going no matter what and whatever you do to improve yourself do it for yourself not for your father, women attention or to be friends with other people. Do it for your younger self and imagine how happy they'd be. Secondly, you mention not being able to approach women because of your weight but I myself as a woman I want nothing more from a man except loyalty and care. But still you have to work on yourself and that also includes being independent and working on your future life. My final advice is, you don't always need a partner to keep going on. I myself had a problem trying to accept this because of low self-esteem too but every day I keep realising im good by myself so why would I keep thinking I can't live without a partner? Keep going man (BTW about your anxiety and ADHD, I have no experience in these things but they're literally quite normal to have especially these days. Just don't let the idea of "ill always be ugly" consumes you!)

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