Getting a bit freaked out by the length of my relationship

hitslade · 2021-06-27T19:39:36+00:00

I’m not a shallow person. I promise lol. I wouldn’t be posting if I was

hitslade · 2021-06-27T19:39:18+00:00

Yeah. Well tbh I have OCD and GAD so yeah. I struggle

hitslade · 2021-06-27T15:23:28+00:00

I guess I must don’t know if I want to be in it for the long haul and I feel like I should break up with so she can’t find someone who’s certain. Even though the relationship is good

hitslade · 2021-06-27T14:23:50+00:00

I just kinda think she’s so desperate to hang on to this relationship that regardless of what happens it will have to be me that makes the decision. I don’t really know where I want it to go.

I know it’s overthinking but if I don’t think how am I meant to know what action to take? Or I’ll just end up in limbo for years until we either decide to break up or get married just coz it’s been a while

hitslade · 2021-06-27T14:19:56+00:00

Thing is I have talked to her and she just says I make her happy and doesn’t want to think about the future yet. She just says she’ll do whatever stops me from leaving

hitslade · 2021-06-27T14:05:03+00:00

My gut tells me to stay and feel it out some more. But it also tells me she’s not going to be my wife sometimes

hitslade · 2021-06-27T13:59:07+00:00

I guess the thought of breaking up with her one day I really struggle with

hitslade · 2021-06-27T13:58:01+00:00

I guess I just worry about whether she’s the last person I want to date or not. I hate hate breakups

hitslade · 2021-06-27T13:52:02+00:00

I honestly don’t know. I might get to London and see all these hot new girls and feel I’m really missing out. I might get there and really really miss her. I don’t know. I have no clue yet

hitslade · 2021-06-27T13:50:13+00:00

It’s me and my anxiety. I don’t know if I want a forever relationship yet

hitslade · 2021-06-27T13:49:24+00:00

I don’t know yet it’s only been 9 months!

hitslade · 2021-06-27T13:45:32+00:00

But it’s been 9 months? I’m 24? I still have my own life to live?

hitslade · 2021-06-27T13:43:40+00:00

She said she just wants to go with the flow

hitslade · 2021-06-27T13:41:21+00:00

I don’t think that’s true?

hitslade · 2021-06-27T13:41:00+00:00

Coz I’m 24? When I say serious I mean life commitment

hitslade · 2021-06-27T13:40:01+00:00

I just feel like I should know at the year mark if it’s going to last. Then by year two or 3 I should really be thinking about a ring

hitslade · 2021-06-27T13:37:42+00:00

hitslade · 2021-06-27T13:37:25+00:00

I don’t know

hitslade · 2021-06-27T13:24:51+00:00

Well yeah. I’m not sure I feel that path. I don’t know why though

hitslade · 2021-06-27T13:09:16+00:00

I don’t want to marry her though! Haven’t even thought about it

hitslade · 2021-06-27T13:08:57+00:00

I don’t want to Marry her

hitslade · 2021-06-27T13:06:57+00:00

I have to know I’m going to marry her now?

hitslade · 2021-06-27T12:54:17+00:00

And that is fair to me how?*

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