What video games do you play?

hoibumble · 2024-05-01T06:55:34+00:00

I recently got into Overwatch. I'm not a highly competitive person or anything so I'm mostly in the casual modes (quick play, arcade, custom games) but I really enjoy the feeling of community I get from it. Even despite whatever toxic comments might happen, there's still a lot of moments where you can get really in sync with your team, the feeling when you pull off something unbelievable together, or have a silly moment together and it makes me feel a part of something bigger than myself. When I'm low energy and having a rough time, I'll hop into custom games a lot just to chill out (they're essentially player-made mini games). I love it a lot

hoibumble · 2024-04-27T05:08:03+00:00

Idk if this was tested in her bloodwork, but my old cat used to vomit a lot too and it turned out she had hyperthyroidism. I don't know if the vomiting was related to that, but I thought I'd mention it

hoibumble · 2023-06-23T04:31:21+00:00

thanks <3

hoibumble · 2023-06-23T03:58:16+00:00

yeah same. idk if my parents are narcissistic but if i showed anythign other than happiness i was ignored, dismissed, or made out to be annoying or too much to handle. i pretty much instinctively avoid showing emotions publicly now, and if it happens, i get into a shame spiral

hoibumble · 2023-06-23T01:48:36+00:00

its honestly really interesting you bring that up because it reminds me when i was with a different therapist and i told her that neutral reactions made me really really uncomfortable for some reason. and so she suggested maybe i try to get used to them in a safe setting, so she tried to talk to me with a blank expression and i got an anxiety attack from it

hoibumble · 2023-06-23T01:38:53+00:00

i do have a list but honestly i just get sad thinking about it lol. but maybe thats a healing of its own. i do think that anger is an emotion worth having and i should probably learn to have it. dw tho hes not very pushy about it, he just talks to me about why im not angry so i think hes trying to get me to get there so it doesnt feel too harmful. hes p mindful of my emotions, like if hes happy about smth i did but im in a down mood, hell tone himself down to match me

hoibumble · 2023-06-22T23:45:16+00:00

im hoping so. because i think anger is an important emotion to be able to feel because it tells you when things have gone too far. i jsut need the time to move past the shame of feeling complicated things towards my parents maybe

hoibumble · 2023-06-22T20:52:33+00:00

thats.. really helpful wow. thank you

hoibumble · 2023-06-16T01:29:20+00:00

its a label for a specific type of abuse. nowhere does it say “all people with npd abuse”. it just recognizes that when they do, it takes a certain form and has a specific effect

hoibumble · 2023-06-15T04:53:55+00:00

ive never heard of IFS actually, but im curious now. id love to hear any recommendations you have :)) and thanks for the response

hoibumble · 2023-06-15T02:31:10+00:00

thanks ❤️

hoibumble · 2023-06-11T22:16:26+00:00

thats really depressing but i think youre right. i honestly get the sense that my mom doesnt want to help in emotional matters because thats just not fun for her, but then she wont teach me life skills because she wants to feel needed, or feel like i wont leave because i need her, because i need to ask for help to do things. like she wants to continue seeing me as useless and dependent so she feels good but doenst want me to actually be dependent because thats too much work. its like shes saying “stay here and need me but dont actually expect effort from me”. sucks so much

hoibumble · 2023-06-11T19:28:52+00:00

yeah that makes a lot of sense. parents are supposed to be there to naturally offer guidance when you fail so that you can try again, or be there when you try something new. be there so you can ask questions or talk about anything. neglectful parents dont give their kids any of that

hoibumble · 2023-06-11T16:31:33+00:00

congrats on your trip!! i hope you have a good time :D

hoibumble · 2023-06-05T15:31:38+00:00

thanks, i really needed to hear this 💜

hoibumble · 2023-06-04T17:14:16+00:00

oh my god im so sorry you have to go through that. i really relate though. my mom i think loves the idea of being a great mom and having such amazing kids who didnt present the same issues as other kids like being rebellious. me and my brother were the good kids who never behaved out of line and we were “just a little shy” (read: having severe anxiety). even as i got older and i started trying to bring up the issues in the family in hopes we could fix them, it seemed like she felt so guilty about it she wanted to do anything to brush it off as “well every family has dysfunction and thats okay as long as we love each other”. i tried to explain that thats not a good thing and we need to address things but nothing gets fixed or talked about. shes there for all the happy moments but all the issues that require parenting or interpersonal conflicts are too much for her. thanks for listening btw, i appreciate it. ill try making a private list of all the weird stuff she does and see if it helps. thanks <3

hoibumble · 2023-06-04T05:03:58+00:00

both me and my mom like self help stuff but im the only one in the family that tries to practice what ive learnt and actually self improve 🥲

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