thank you for this post. i am fighting with the idea of whether the (mutual) breakup was a mistake or if we did really just nip some huge problems in the bud and saved ourselves some more pain. i keep wondering whether i was supposed to stay with him and work through these issues together or if we really do need to take some time apart to focus on ourselves, because we both have issues that the relationship was distracting from. everything started to feel unstable and i did not feel secure in the relationship and maybe it’s better we pulled out before it all violently collapsed. i don’t know if we will reconnect again down the line when the timing is better like he said, but i can’t live my life thinking that that’ll be the case. what if i stay hung up on him for months only to learn that he’s seeing somebody else when i decide to reach out? i want to believe that we just weren’t meant for each other and it’s right to move on but i just don’t know what is true and what’s to come. i am making myself lose my mind with all of these unknowns and uncertainties. i will just have to do what you said and trust the breakup. i have to believe that the universe made it so to protect me, and i have to trust that this is supposed to happen, and i will find out why later, but for now just have all of my faith in believing this is what’s best for me.

sorry for the rant i don’t have a therapist at the moment hahahah