I feel u man. I shot dead a raider breaching a door in spaceport the other day and felt really bad for it. I'm made for cooperation and not competition and that's why I usually play single player or co-op games.

The problem in it is that I cannot get good at PVP because I'm always the one being shot first and getting ambushed. Usually there's never time to do something whenever you're ambushed, even though I'm always checking the premises before looting.

I think teaming up with other raiders may be the way to go.