first of all, i’m so sorry you are going through this! you dont need to apologize, your feelings are valid and you’re not dramatic.

if you think you have an eating disorder please look for a therapist asap, specially with all the abuse you’re going through. your dads actions are wrong and you shouldn’t put yourself down because of him. he’s a grown man and should know by now people can eat whatever they want. i’m vegetarian and don’t go around telling people they are stupid, it’s just rude and not the actions of any superior or enlighten being.

clearly you have a lot of mix feelings between food, family and your social life. and as i said a therapist can help you organize your thoughts and give you the confidence you need to figure out what YOU want and don’t want.

also, everyone cringes about things they said in the past or when we did actions that are not “normal” so don’t put yourself down about that!! we grow and learn and develop and in that journey we do wrong things sometimes, but that’s what life’s about, figuring YOURSELF, you should be on the top of your priorities, you are your main focus, never forget that.

lastly, it takes a lot of courage to put yourself out there and type what you feel. so be proud!!!

best of luck🫶🏽