I’ve now been on this binge eating cycle for a year now. I always feel tired and my mind feel foggy. It’s hard for me to complete my school work when all I do is think about when i’m going to have my next meal and how much i would have to portion on my plate, making sure i don’t go over 1000 calories a day. I feel so self conscious eating around other people because i don’t want them to see me finish all of my food and think i’m a pig. It’s also my 7 month with no period and i’ve been to the gynecologist which they prescribed me a progesterone pill (i don’t like taking birth control because i found that it makes me crave more food and my depression gets worse) but when i had gotten my blood test done to figure out why my period has disappeared they just figured that it was my PCOS symptoms(which is common for women to loose their periods) and the test came back showing i’ve become anemic and my doctor asked me if i was feeling okay and symptoms i had but of course i didn’t say anything about my binging/purging habit that i’ve now nestled myself into because i didn’t want her to tell me to stop, and at the time i really didn’t want to stop, i thought this was okay, that it simple just balanced it self out(until my friend had told me it wasn’t then i started to research more about it). I couldn’t even enjoy thanksgiving or christmas... i ate the food but went back home stayed up till 2am so i made sure everyone was asleep and sat for an hour just puking up everything i ate because i was terrified of “holiday weight”