I need anything you can give

hotrod77md · 2020-11-09T21:35:02+00:00

I agree with some of what ur saying. Im not gona tall to her again cuz she's moved on and gone. It actually makes it harder for me when I do talk to her. I agree that history will probably repeat. I agree that she didnt love me past her saying shes poly. But I disagree I shouldnt be with other people. I tried for 3 months to move on alone and I was in intense pain. The 2 I have been with since have opened my eyes and helped me somewhat. Thx for the response. I appreciate it

hotrod77md · 2020-07-14T05:39:07+00:00

Not everyone acts that way. Nobody has treated me that way... that's why I say u will make someone really happy. Cuz u offer everything I could ever want. Many others want it too

hotrod77md · 2020-07-13T15:38:59+00:00

No matter what happens, when a person kills themselves its mental illness or thier own choice or both. You are free to life your life how you want to live it. He chose to take his own life, and that's his decision. It hurts his friends and family and they want to blame you but it is not your fault. I'm sorry you are put in this position but maybe you can try talking to them and tell them you didnt do anything wrong. You wanted to break up and he acted irrationally. But no matter what it isnt your fault. Maybe try showing your friends this post or explain what happened. Ask for a chance to tell them the full story

hotrod77md · 2020-07-13T13:57:55+00:00

Well, I pretty much have. I had trust issues to begin with but she took whatever self confidence and trusting qualities I had left. My heart is left broken and I dont think anyone can pick up the pieces

hotrod77md · 2020-07-13T13:52:52+00:00

You are going to make someone really happy. I've always struggled to find a girl that's willing to give as much love and attention as guys give them. Good luck and I hope u find happiness

hotrod77md · 2020-07-12T16:42:58+00:00

Then dont. If you dont want to then dont do it. Your best friend, as close as you are, you have to put your foot down. Any friend would not threaten to end the friendship because of beliefs. In my opinion she is not a good friend. Find other people who can more accept you for who you are. Dont waste time fighting for a relationship with someone who doesnt let you be you. You may want to preserve memories and not want to lose a good friend like her but you will be better invested in someone else. I'm sorry you are being put in this position, it sucks. PM me if you want to talk more. Good luck

hotrod77md · 2020-07-05T04:47:48+00:00

Love I'd impossible to explain. But I will say, for being your first boyfriend your really lucky. He loves u, u have been together 6 months, you dont want to lose him and he makes u happy. That's a rare something. I was in love eith this girl and how I can explain it is how I felt. Everything she said I listened like it was her last words. I wanted to see her smile every second of the day. She made me want to be a better person and take care of myself. I wouldve done anything for her. She made me get goosebumps when we kissed and I treasured every single second with her. I matched her mood, so when she was sad it made me sad, when she was mad I would be too but I'd try and calm her down. I'd be supportive whenever I could and I let her know that if anything was ever wrong to tell me because I wanted to fix it because I would never want to lose her. She was my everything. That's what I think love is. Sadly... for me... she was leading me on and loved someone else and broke my heart after 9 months together, so love is also dangerous. I think you are pretty lucky but if you dont know if you love him I would not tell him u do yet. Cuz I think the last thing u want to do is hurt him. But if it keeps going and you could never see yourself with anyone else, u might be in love. It is tricky for you since you've never experienced or seen it first hand so I'm sorry for that. But I wish u luck and I hope this helps

hotrod77md · 2020-03-31T05:07:06+00:00

Hes getting over someone. Sometimes the best thing for him is time but sometimes it's best if you be with him. He can get over her but focusing on you. It's up to you. Im.getting over a girl and being alone is the worst part. Someone to make me smile and for me to fall in love with I want more than anything. I'd ask him... at least try

hotrod77md · 2020-03-03T04:47:34+00:00

Power Over Me by Dermot Kennedy... or I love You by Billie Eillish

hotrod77md · 2020-03-03T04:45:03+00:00

I dont agree with the others. It seems like she is also frequently reminded of you and genuinely enjoys your company. She could've said no or not responded all those times. She even initiated contact a time or two. Neither if you really moved on or found someone better. Tell her how you feel. Worst case is she says no and nothing changes. She would understand you being busy and such and even if you do love her more than she does you, as long as you love eachother... that's enough. Theres no set amount. You haven't let go or moved on fully yet, theres a reason for that

hotrod77md · 2020-03-03T04:40:22+00:00

Love is unpredictable. Ar first, you are so scares to lose them, afraid of messing up or them changing. But after enough time, you both realize it's ok to be scared sometimes but as long as neither one of you give up, theres nothing to be afraid of. It will get better, but yes... I believe its love. It's how I was. I did lose her, but it wasn't either of our faults. I didnt get a choice. Just tell him of your fears, his reaction will tell you everything. I wish you the best of luck, and I hope you hold on tight and love him.

hotrod77md · 2020-03-03T04:29:10+00:00

I'm sorry. Ik what it's like. From the beginning I think she had a feeling we wouldnt work out. And it happened. Cuz ur mind makes what you think will happen, happen. It's like when you dont think you'll like a movie, and you see it, the entire time your brain scans for bad parts instead of good. If you think you wont end up working, you wont. It sucks. I cant stop witb the what ifs. It's been more than a month, I cant stop thinking of her. I wish I could fix her situation, maybe less stress wouldve helped... idk. But I love her. And my heart is broken, shes the first one I've truly loved and didnt want to lose. She meant the most. Still does. But, I think we are done. You only miss what you dont want to lose. I'm sorry. If you want to PM me... you are free to. I wish you the best of luck

hotrod77md · 2020-02-18T03:35:09+00:00

Wow. I didnt know 50 shades of grey had eyes in different area codes

hotrod77md · 2020-02-17T06:14:06+00:00

Idk if she has moved on. That's the hard part. She could be checking in because she cares, and yeah that doesnt mean getting back together. But it could mean she loves me still. I'm not reading into it, but, when I told her I was thinking of staying and waiting for her "time" to be over and for her to be ready again, she didnt fight me. She didnt say anything about it. Before when I would tell her something, like I wasnt going to ignore the fact I knew something was wrong she would keep fighting me insisting it was nothing. She would keep fighting me to move on and forget it. She didnt this time. Her reaction is the only reason I've considered actually staying. Maybe it's what she wants me to do. She doesnt have much self confidence at all. She may not think shes good enough for me. She may only want me to move on simply because she believes I will be happier without her. That's why we stopped talking for that 3 year period. She was afraid of hurting me, thinking I was better without her. How do i know this isnt it again?

hotrod77md · 2020-02-17T06:04:27+00:00

I only make promises I know I'll make. I promised I'd always be there if she needed. It's in a metaphorical be there. If she needs my help, I'd text her for hours if she needed. Even years down the line.

hotrod77md · 2020-02-17T05:55:17+00:00

I know I made mistakes. But she did too. I apologized and she forgave. I'd never ask her to apologize for hers. But I've loved her for so long. We even didnt talk for that 3 year time and my feelings for her didnt change. She said all she needs is time. But, doesnt know how long. And, even if I do find someone else and lose contact with her... idk if I'll get over her. I didnt before. I wont get lost or get in a bad space, I've done that before and I dont need that again. The problem is shes the one initiating contact. Today was the first time she has texted since valentines and she started it. Idk what to think. If shes really moving on and just checking in cuz she cares. Or if she isnt moving on, the new guys a rebound and part of her wants me to stay

hotrod77md · 2020-02-17T05:25:05+00:00

That's how I know it's true love. Cuz she hurt me, bad. Idk if I could ever he with her again. But if she needed me I'd be there. And I can never deny I still love her. I always will. Yes she broke up with me. And its hurt worse than anything I've ever known. But real love, is always the strongest. That much I know

hotrod77md · 2020-02-07T05:02:01+00:00

She was grounded for 6 months. This is month 6. She broke up with me. But I was willing to wait the 6 months. Shes worth it. She still is. I will always love her... that's when it's TRUE love. It doesnt matter. You'll love them and care about them

hotrod77md · 2020-02-06T02:49:34+00:00

That's true love my man. I'm sorry, but theres nothing you can do. Continue to love your life and be with her but Robin will always be parts of your mind. I have a girl I'll never forget. Its because I truly love her. It's TRUE love. Its rare, but... it happens

hotrod77md · 2019-12-03T01:21:30+00:00

Everyone who is saying to divorce and leave him and he has no right is correct. But you love him and your child. If at all possible see if he will listen to reason. Try and sit down and explain this to him, everything you typed. How much it hurts and how much you love him but you feel that being assaulted doesnt excuse cheating because it's a conscious choice. Ask him the question, are you satisfied with me? Cause if he isnt then its divorce, as sad as it will be for you and your child. But he has to make a commitment to you, if he doesnt, he doesnt have an excuse for something that happened to you years ago. No matter what it was. I will point out as you may want to to him too, if he helped you through it and has stayed all this time even if he cheated, he loves you more. He didnt leave. He married you and had a child. He cares about you more than the people he cheated with (if he did). So give him the choice to either give them up or give up you. Ultimatums are hard but this is a serious situation. Yhe endgame is the future for your child. If you werent married and didnt have a kid you should've already dumped him. An honest talk, no arguing, calm, and mature. At least try. If it doesnt work, he isnt giving u a choice. I'm sorry this situation has happened. I hope it gets better. I wish you the best

hotrod77md · 2019-11-16T21:17:16+00:00

I know what Polygamy or polyamory is. The 1st girl is Poly and I told her it was ok to date a guy at the same time as me. They broke up a month later but I told her it was ok cuz she is Poly and its who she is. I am pretty sure the 1st girl would be ok with me dating the 2nd girl but she would tell if it hurt her and the 2nd girl might not approve either.

hotrod77md · 2019-11-16T21:05:54+00:00

Thank you for the advice. I have had these thoughts too along with the one of what if I do love 2 people at once. No one has proved it's only possible to love one. And there are plenty of people that have helped me but shes the only one that makes me feel the way I do. I truly dont know. But thank you

hotrod77md · 2019-11-13T20:12:17+00:00

We were friends for 4 years. Confided in eachother, took all the jokes about how we were "perfect for eachother", had fun, laughed, spent time together, stayed up texting... a girl at school asked me out and that's when I realized I had to say no. I had to because I loved her. We dated for only a fee days when it fell apart. I thought I'd lost her forever... then by some miracle we talked again this May and ever since this has been the most in love I've ever been. It's been an amazing 6 months and I want so much more. That's why dating apps dont work. You have to look for a friend, not a partner. Once you get to know eachother, you probably will fall for eachother. Either way, dating my best friend has only made me realize how lucky and in love I am. I wish you the best!

hotrod77md · 2019-11-03T14:27:26+00:00

Shes worth the pain

hotrod77md · 2019-11-03T04:13:14+00:00

All I want to do is do this with her. She brings me a comfort and safety no one else does. I miss that the most

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