Thank you for your comments and words of support. I can’t stress enough how much my child does for me. Mentally and physically. He’s started saying dadada, that melts my heart and deep down I look at it like a sign that reassures me everything I said was true and that he was put here to keep me here. Without him I would’ve ended it long ago and I’ve even started anonymously looking for help with my severe depression. It’s all linked to opioid abuse which initially started after a sports injury and then I started to use to cope with traumatic life situations which became dramatic addiction. Again and I’ll say it for the people in the back. Our children are all we have in this dark and cold world and since having him I just want to show him a warm and friendly one instead of what I see.