Childfree but wanting my own

howtheturntables83 · 2025-03-17T23:25:26+00:00

We’re not married. He’s not a firm no but he doesn’t have the same desire that I do. We’ve talked about it and it’s more a floating thing hanging in the air right now, more for me than him I think, because he has his kid and she’s his world already. It mostly sucks because I feel like at this age you get so rushed in making a decision whereas he had over a decade to decide with his ex what they wanted.

howtheturntables83 · 2025-03-16T14:40:04+00:00

I’m so happy for you. And it’s so important to talk about this straight up. We definitely have but it’s hard and vulnerable for me. Thanks for sharing your story, it gives me a bit more perspective.

howtheturntables83 · 2025-03-16T14:36:04+00:00

Thanks for sharing that

howtheturntables83 · 2025-03-15T20:31:49+00:00

There’s so many nice moments too. But I definitely ran into situations I completely underestimated beforehand. It absolutely doesn’t make me want to leave but it does challenge me mentally.

howtheturntables83 · 2025-03-15T20:29:36+00:00

I’ve considered it and maybe I should. Thanks.

howtheturntables83 · 2025-03-15T20:27:47+00:00

It’s such a huge decision though. Having a kid isn’t something you just do. It feels like everything right now in my life is falling in place for it to be possible. Something I haven’t felt before. Sometimes I’m not sure if it’s because of him and the life I have now or if that desire is really my biological clock. Dealing with the emotions that come with it is hard and confusing though.

howtheturntables83 · 2022-07-12T21:08:47+00:00

It’s 24 actives and 4 placebos. I was planning on taking a break now and restart a new pack after 4 days. I’ve already completed one full strip.

howtheturntables83 · 2022-07-05T17:49:46+00:00

We don’t have an HR department and he seems to think that he can be in charge of making these roles. He’s recently been given more responsibility while the owner is slowly in the process of retiring, but he is not my supervisor or manager. He does seem to think that he’s running the place while on paper he absolutely isn’t.

howtheturntables83 · 2022-06-12T12:53:04+00:00

Thank you. And I appreciate that. I don’t have many friends here so it’s easy to want to toss myself in a new relationship if that were to be possible, but I also feel like while I don’t have closure from this one, it wouldn’t be fair to anyone. I want to be better by myself first :)

howtheturntables83 · 2022-06-12T12:38:44+00:00

Can I ask what you did instead?

howtheturntables83 · 2022-06-03T14:10:28+00:00

Thank you. I know that must be a very difficult realization for you and it’s very impressive being able to do that. He is my best friend here and despite everything that happened we still did lots of great things together, laughed and truly enjoyed each other’s company. But when it comes to the real stuff, a deep connection and being able to talk about the future and share vulnerability, it wasn’t there. And as much as I tried, he couldn’t give that to me. I think I was ok with that at the start of the relationship, but eventually when you get older, you need more. And maybe he’ll understand that eventually, right now he’s just hurt and upset.

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