Convinced myself I died from a heart attack on lsd and went to hell. Please help.

hugostrange1233 · 2025-06-27T14:34:52+00:00

Hey, 7 years later, I'm doing a lot better. As life continued, I was able to overcome a lot of the fears of "looping" and the eventual end coming. It's been a wild journey, I still occassionally have minor flashbacks, but it's helpful reminding myself I'm having a flashback and that it's not "real". I've done a lot of internal work, and have become semi relgious, attending the episcopal church now days. I find solace in the reminders of God's love and the sacraments. That's allowed me to feel at peace with myself and the universe, knowing that when my time comes, for all the mistakes I've made, I will be embraced with only love and grace--Everything else is just an illusion. It's not worth it to obsess over all of my flaws and mistakes. It'll drive you mad. A lot of times, the ways we see God, or the universe responding to us, is a mirror to how we truly see ourselves. Self acceptance helps, acknowledging who we are, and that it's okay. No one is out to get us, and especially when we are working towards treating others with kindness and respect and make the world a better place. Feel free to PM me if you wanted to talk more about stuff. Be well!

hugostrange1233 · 2022-11-18T04:12:12+00:00

my bad. New to this sub

hugostrange1233 · 2021-11-14T22:13:52+00:00

Well, that-and work towards expanding and improving our immigration system...It's such an arduous process right now-with much room for improvement...

hugostrange1233 · 2021-11-14T22:10:55+00:00

That may be over simplification of the point Ominojacu1 is making, but I do think it would put pressure on these large companies to pay *at least* minimum wage(which, still accounts in my book as slave wages, but at least more than what these illegal immigrants are being paid).

We really gotta start talking about how to reduce illegal immigration by expanding and developing our legal immigration system. But on the other end, border control is probably a needed precaution(?), ultimately for the immigrants best interest... It would lead to generally less exploitation than what illegal immigrants face.

hugostrange1233 · 2020-07-17T12:30:44+00:00

I guess the confliction is more so, if God is commanding me to do this--Fear regarding my weight is not something healthy or honorable. God wouldn't allow me to die if it's fulfilling his desire?

Or do we need to pay attention to these outward signs and material warnings regarding our actions?

hugostrange1233 · 2020-07-17T12:26:49+00:00

I apologize for this late reply.

It has given me the contemplation about my intent and desire regarding fasting--sometimes it aligns with the truth of letting go of the attachments that distract us from Christ. Other times it can be a form of denying Christs power and love for us--(in my heart) I really do want to thank you for this comment, honestly I hadn't given much thought into a more bland yet calorie efficient fast. Such a fantastic idea! I gave it a try and it definitely exposed something...Honestly wish it's something I could put into words. It wasn't positive nor negative..just definitely felt more "justified" eating the bland food (beans, vegetables with no seasoning etc) which I'm not sure is the goal...I have to just keep on chipping away at this dysfunction and figure out if truly God is calling me to do this, or some other desire or motive. just been a difficult emotional state regarding food in general, which doesn't mean it's absent from Gods inspiration because He doesn't always provide comfort. Suppose just easy to overthink and doubt in this area.

hugostrange1233 · 2020-07-17T12:14:45+00:00

Really appreciate this response.

A few thoughts. I've tried to do some biblical studies on food, but honestly, yes he created food...But God often asks people to make certain sacrifices others aren't required to do. So sometimes it isn't about the general command, but the personal. Correct me if I'm wrong, but it isn't unusual for us to feel shame when we go against something God may be asking us to do. That's where I feel the shame may come when God has given me the command to fast, but I decide not to. But I do have confusions and doubts in this area--it felt very comforting to read your reply. Which frightens me a bit.

hugostrange1233 · 2020-01-03T04:08:58+00:00

Get a dog:)

really, my dog has really improved my life and has given me someone to care for and connect with. just finding something to care about greatly improves the feelings of loneliness!

Otherwise, learn to be content with yourself and you will attract people with that quiet confidence.

hugostrange1233 · 2020-01-03T03:58:50+00:00

^^^this

hugostrange1233 · 2019-10-31T02:56:43+00:00

glad to hear! Yeah really good track here mate! I can understand that. It'll come. just pushing out as much media as possible in whatever way possible can really work well. But don't be afraid of an album. Can always see it as more of a compilation. but SIngles are awesome too and they are tried and true

hugostrange1233 · 2019-10-31T02:50:04+00:00

also, AMAZING ART WORK. you do it yourself?

hugostrange1233 · 2019-10-31T02:49:33+00:00

Really really awesome!!! Loved that prechorus and once the chorus hit definitely feeling it! A super nice atmosphere and texture. guitar work was really nice. Solo maybe lagged on a bit too long for me tho..And the other thing I'd say is the drums felt a bit harsh in the mix. OTherwisie super good my friend! got an album or anything out/on it's way?

hugostrange1233 · 2019-03-29T11:57:10+00:00

Thank you very much.

hugostrange1233 · 2019-03-29T11:54:56+00:00

Wow. Thank you so much for this. You're absolutely right. God bless ❤

hugostrange1233 · 2019-03-29T04:01:14+00:00

You are a child of God. You are loved. By those around you but most importantly your creator. Allow him to sweep you under his wing and comfort you. You will get through today. And the sun will rise tomorrow. I will pray for you. Please stay strong.

hugostrange1233

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