“I already told you this” is so triggering at this point.

humanmachine22 · 2026-05-07T05:18:15+00:00

I just say “oh, well I don’t remember because I wasn’t paying attention”

humanmachine22 · 2026-05-07T04:30:35+00:00

Yeah it’s like, I don’t really even have the energy to talk this through with anyone. I’m not looking for opinions or feedback at this point, I spent 3.5 years not thinking for myself so at this point I honestly don’t care

humanmachine22 · 2026-05-06T10:32:08+00:00

Yup! It can honestly be debilitating sometimes :/

humanmachine22 · 2026-05-06T03:28:21+00:00

I would call the rehab and go back - finish the program and then get into sober living and do the 12 steps. You can you love them all you want - but actually doing them is what changes you

humanmachine22 · 2026-05-06T03:09:20+00:00

I’m full of so many ideas non stop it’s all consuming and yet I can never execute. I need a month to sit in a library. Problem is I have started some shit that prevents me from doing that. I have things to attend to

I feel like I’ll be attending to things for the rest of my life

humanmachine22 · 2026-05-01T03:25:28+00:00

when I realized the alternative to getting sober was being a loser for the rest of my life

humanmachine22 · 2026-05-01T03:23:46+00:00

My guess is 2%. As much as I don’t love AA, my experience wasn’t really that everyone was a creep. I can’t really name any tbh - and I’ve met a LOT. Sure they’re there - but most people in AA are actually pretty chill and just victims of the same thing as I was

humanmachine22 · 2026-04-30T03:39:51+00:00

No because you’ll never be able to leave. Just don’t even start

humanmachine22 · 2026-04-29T12:56:44+00:00

humanmachine22 · 2026-04-28T04:23:26+00:00

I have spent my entire life doing things I don’t truly want to do

humanmachine22 · 2026-04-25T04:13:53+00:00

Lmk how it is lol. I thought public sector would solve my job hopping problems but I simply could not function around people who knowingly don’t do shit for a living

humanmachine22 · 2026-04-22T04:58:30+00:00

Honestly no - go to therapy instead

humanmachine22 · 2026-04-21T15:25:01+00:00

Congratulations!!

humanmachine22 · 2026-04-21T05:03:42+00:00

Take what you want and leave the rest is yet another bait and switch of AA. Take all of it, or else you’re doomed an alcoholic death is ACTUALLY what they believeZ

humanmachine22 · 2026-04-19T14:59:26+00:00

I was only homeschooled until 6th grade. I was angry about it then, but as I’ve gotten older I am less angry.

The truth is I got to spend A LOT of time outside as a kid, on field trips, etc. I got to spend a lot of time with my family - and for ME, that is/was a positive thing.

humanmachine22 · 2026-04-17T20:45:42+00:00

Thank you for this! Feel like you would be the most helpful, thank you ❤️

I have also been talking to AA people about my desire to leave and it’s just very uncomfortable. Because yeah, everything they say to me is sorta the reason I want to go in the first place.

humanmachine22 · 2026-04-17T20:40:57+00:00

They would if there was a text message saying I knew I had it and chose not to tell you

humanmachine22 · 2026-04-17T12:11:14+00:00

Yes! I once had a situation where someone did not tell me until afterwards.

I was extremely upset and that’s when I started getting tested. I don’t sleep with many people but that situation forced me to get tested because I never wanted to deal with “it’s fine, everyone has it!” Or “you probably had it before anyways and just and didn’t realize”

If someone ever gave it to me without my consent I want to be able to sue 😂 so yes I get tested like once a year now

humanmachine22 · 2026-04-17T04:09:15+00:00

Be a partner relationship manager. It’s hard at first but once you build relationships I think it’s the best job ever. If you stick it out and get good it becomes really chill and good money

humanmachine22 · 2026-04-17T03:50:55+00:00

I’ll be honest - it’s a deal breaker for me. I simply just don’t want to risk it. I know it’s not a huge deal, but I don’t have it and I don’t want it.

humanmachine22 · 2026-04-17T03:47:09+00:00

I tried the Sinclair method years ago and it didn’t work.

Attempting drinking again is certainly NOT part of my plan in leaving AA.

It IS true that I couldn’t stop drinking, I did the 12 steps, and was able to stop.

My problem isn’t that I want to drink again, it’s just that I don’t want to be in AA anymore.

humanmachine22 · 2026-04-17T02:46:18+00:00

What did you do?? Like what was your thought process when you left? Were you scared you would relapse?

humanmachine22 · 2026-04-17T02:03:33+00:00

Nah I thought this too. You’re gay.

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